I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 521 You may not be a great man

I was only focused on venting my emotions, and completely ignored how much strength Ye Zhi's shoulder straps could withstand; the next moment, the sound of breaking came from my tightly clenched hands... It also woke me up.

I looked at Ye Zhi, feeling really sorry, I tore off the shoulder straps on her underwear, she must be very uncomfortable.

Just when I thought she would be unhappy, she took out a tissue from her bag and wiped away the tears that had been in my eyes for me... It's strange, after such an action, I couldn't control it anymore I couldn't help it, I looked at her, tears "swish" and fell down.

She patted my back lightly, and went to the bathroom... When she came out, the place where the shoulder straps were broken had been knotted, so there was obviously a bulge on the clothes; not only that, the original drape The hair she wore was also tied into a braid...

While I watched, she made my bed, and then cleaned up the trash on the bedside table...

When she cleaned out all the cigarette butts in the ashtray, the originally smoky ward became much cleaner.

I was a little dazed, this is probably what she looked like when she was a housewife... She has been unreal in my heart for too long, suddenly doing these trivial things, I have mixed feelings in my heart.

"...Here is a peeled pear, why don't you eat it?"

As Ye Zhi said, she picked up the pear that Lu Jia had peeled for me before leaving, because after a night, the surface of the pear had turned yellow and its appearance was very ugly.

I don't know what to say, but there is a kind of tragic desolation in my heart, like a city that has just been bloodbathed, the inside is cold and windy, and corpses are everywhere... No one wants to turn love into a war, but for As far as Lu Jia and I are concerned, this is indeed the case... There is no winner between us, only endless suffering and right and wrong.

I finally opened my mouth and replied to Ye Zhi: "I forgot to eat."

"Are you going to throw it away?"

I glanced at Li again, and couldn't help but think of the scenes yesterday, and it hurts to think about it... So I said to Ye Zhi: "Throw away the broken things."

Ye Zhi nodded, and threw the pear into the trash can, like a ripe and rotten fruit, fell from the tree to the ground, and then fell to pieces.

……

Back on the hospital bed, I was half lying down, and Ye Zhi was sitting by the bed; for a while, we couldn't find anything to talk about, so we were silent for a while, and I was the last one to speak, and I asked her: " Aren't you abroad, why did you come back so soon?"

"Come back and see you."

"I'm fine... It's just that I'm always nestled in the hospital bed, no one talks, and I feel a little uncomfortable."

"I heard from Manager Yao that you had a car accident while you were on the phone with him..."

"Well, I was in a hurry to deliver the order. What I said on the phone was also an important matter, so I did it together... Maybe I should be unlucky. I won't be hit by a second early or a second late."

"You're just too distracted...you must be tired with so many things on your mind every day, right?"

"Don't talk about me, you are too... We all live very tired, maybe, this is called being in the rivers and lakes."

Ye Zhi nodded, and then looked out of the window in a daze... I also followed her gaze, and the sunlight passing through the glass formed circles of light on the ground; There, a group of white pigeons landed on the old apartment building, and suddenly a van passed by, and they all flew up... After hovering in the sky for a long time, they fell back again.

For me, I really hope that this group of white doves can bring a little peace to my heart.

I still remember when I first came to Dali, I thought about the life of "under Cangshan Mountain, next to Erhai Lake, a wooden house, a bottle of wine, one person, one dog, and one afternoon"... Now, it has deviated far... It is I who have changed Now, I am eager to succeed, and I want more... Sometimes I must feel tired, but there is no power that can wake up the original self!
After a brief silence, Ye Zhi asked me: "Want to eat something? I'll go buy it for you."

"I want to eat some mangosteen."

"Then wait for me for a while."

As Ye Zhi said, she picked up her handbag from the cabinet... Looking at her back, I felt a little warm in my heart, but I suddenly forgot, when we were dating, did she treat me as well as she does now? .

……

Ye Zhi won't come back so soon, because she is a woman who cares about her image very much, she will definitely find a place to replace the underwear whose suspenders were torn off by me...

After waiting for a while, Ye Zhi didn't come back, but Wednesday and Wednesday.

He was carrying a rather big bag, I didn't know what it was, so I asked him, "What is that in your hand?"

"Latex pillow, I brought it for you... It will make you sleep more comfortably at night."

I smiled and asked again: "Why are you so nice to me all of a sudden?"

"Don't worry about me... I'll just ask you, how do you feel when you've been left out in the cold by everyone these two days?"

"Are you ignoring me?...Why don't I know?"

"Don't pretend to be confused... Do you miss my fourth brother very much now?"

This stunned young man on Wednesday is so impatient. When he asked, I understood everything... He wanted me to realize how important Yang Sisi is to me.

Of course Yang Sisi is very important, but in such a situation, I can no longer worry about these things.

It can't be that as soon as Lu Jia leaves, I panic and find a harbor where I can dock, so that I am not responsible to anyone... Because some things take a lot of time to figure out... Yang Sisi has never been Anyone's substitute, because her personality is too distinct, so she can only be Yang Sisi, or Yang Ruhua, or Fourth Brother.

I pressed my temples, and then I said to Wednesday three times: "I have known your fourth brother for so long, and I must be very sad that she is gone... But don't you think, this is still a good one." The result?... She should have her own life and her own fun... What she is doing now is a process of finding herself... You must know that people who only live for love are very tired... ...I actually feel that after seeing her, she is more charismatic."

"Then what do you mean?"

"When you don't know what to do, then letting nature take its course is the best choice... If it were you, facing my current situation, you would do the same... Besides, with this energy, Why don't we think about our own careers?... I really hope that when I die, what everyone can remember is what I have done in my life, not the emotional lace... "

"Do you consider yourself a great man?"

"In this life, you may not be able to be a great man, but you have to leave something in this world... right?"

(End of this chapter)