I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 518
Chen Jin felt that my emotions were not right, he glanced at me first, then took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and handed it to me, I asked him for a lighter, and after lighting it, I hesitated again. I don't know how to tell him about Lu Jia, it seems that it's hard to say anything.

Half of the cigarette had been smoked, and I didn't say a word in a daze.

Chen Jin finally couldn't hold back anymore, he said to me: "Looking at you like this, it's so wrong... What's the matter with you two... How did she go to Chengdu again?"

I know this matter cannot be concealed, but I don't want to tarnish Lu Jia's reputation, and I don't want others to look at her strangely. After weighing it for a while, I ignored the important point and replied to Chen Jin: "Just now We quarreled when we came back... Our three views are too different... So, I offered to end this relationship."

"Come on, if you could end the relationship between the two of you because of this matter, it would have ended long ago, and you wouldn't have waited until today... Tell the truth with your buddy, what happened... It's so fucking sudden... ... Lu Jia has paid so much for you, at least she will not end this relationship easily."

I looked at Chen Jin, feeling very conflicted in my heart... He knows the relationship between me and Lu Jia too well, there is no way to fool him with ordinary rhetoric... So, after a moment of pondering, I slapped myself, and then said yes He said: "It's my fault... When I was in Jimo, I couldn't hold back my loneliness, and had sex with a woman... This woman found Lu Jia... and also sent photos of us having sex together. gave her..."

"No joke?"

"No joke……"

After Chen Jin was silent for a long while, he said, "This is a fucking matter of principle. Lu Jia is blind... But, my buddy can understand you. After all, you are a grown man, so you must have physical needs... But, you It's too careless... How can a woman who is just playing around be entangled?"

"I don't have your kind of ability to not keep a single leaf...I'm sorry for Lu Jia."

"Let your buddies tell you what to order!"

"Don't say anything... get me a bowl of chicken soup... I'm hungry."

"Get you a bowl of chicken shit, okay?"

I was speechless, Chen Jin also lit a cigarette for himself; he only smoked halfway, he pinched the cigarette, and then asked me: "Who is that woman...isn't it Sisi?" ?”

"How could it be her... She went to Jimo to find me and asked you to find out."

"Ye Zhi?"

"Aren't you farting... When this happened, she didn't come back yet... Don't ask, I'm confused, let me stay by myself for a while."

"You, it's obvious that you caused trouble, and in the end it looks like you have been wronged... You really think of yourself as a master!"

"Let's go, stop talking here."

"Success, I'll go...you should repent..."

After Chen Jin said this, he was about to leave... I stopped him again, and then said to him in a begging manner: "Don't make this matter public, let me be more decent!"

"I have a sense of proportion... If Sisi and Ye Zhi know about this... In the end, no one will be left behind for you."

"Don't ask Lu Jia about this either..."

"I won't make fun of myself...you've done such a bastard thing, she will definitely blame me for not being optimistic about you...I'm going to ask her, isn't it just asking for trouble for myself?"

"Ah."

……

After Chen Jin left, I was silent for a while. I didn’t think about anything deliberately. I smoked a lot until my lungs started to feel uncomfortable... I was not in the mood to eat, so when I came back to my senses, chicken soup It's already cold.

I haven't been so frustrated in my life for a long time.

I really want to go to the Erhai Lake for a walk, but I hate that I have lost a leg... The only thing I can deal with is this ward of about ten square meters.

Yes, he didn't even come to see me on Wednesdays or Wednesdays. He was angry with me because of Yang Sisi's return to Shanghai.

I seem to have become the most unpopular person in the world.

I can't blame others, I was so busy that even old friends like Director Ma began to lose touch with him. He didn't even know that my leg was broken, so he couldn't talk about visiting me.

……

The urge to urinate hit me, and I sat up from the bed with difficulty, and then urinated again into the almost full urinal... I was very embarrassed to bother the nurse, so I leaned on crutches and went to empty the urinal .

It was already dark, and the lights outside the window lit up one after another...

I know that it will not be long before I will be more lonely. I am afraid of the night, and I am even more afraid of facing the lights that illuminate thousands of families alone.

Even so, I dare not smoke anymore, because my lungs are dry and painful.

I lay on the bed like a disabled person, while reflecting on my life, I forced myself to sleep quickly, and when I fell asleep, there were not so many troubles.

……

After about eight o'clock, the door of the ward was pushed open again... I was surprised that someone came, because it was not the so-and-so whom I was familiar with, but An An who had only met a few times.

After she put the fruit basket she brought on the bedside cabinet, she said to me: "I haven't seen you delivering food for two days. I asked the little brother who took care of you... I just found out that you were in a car accident."

I forced a smile, and then replied: "I didn't expect you to come to see me... Hurry up and find a place to sit."

An An looked around, but couldn't find anything to sit on; finally, she sat down beside my bed, smiled at me awkwardly, and asked, "You're going to have to rest for a long time, right?"

"Well, at least a month."

"You have suffered enough."

"It's actually okay, but it's too boring... There is no one who can talk."

An An smiled: "Then we really feel sorry for each other... He hasn't visited me for several days... Tell me, why are people so afraid of being lonely?"

"Compared to this question, I think we should think more about... the so-called loneliness, is it given by ourselves, or is it given by others... Sometimes I really want all things to be empty, but there are too many things that I can't let go of in my heart."

After a short pause, I asked An An again: "A more private question for you... If you were in this state all the time, would you try to break free?"

"What do you mean by breaking free?"

"I can't bear the loneliness, I'm looking for a new love."

An An looked at me with a strange look, and I hurriedly explained: "I'm not implying anything... It's just that I have encountered such confusion... Is it really difficult for two people who have not been together for a long time to maintain the so-called relationship?" loyalty?"

"That's for sure... Otherwise, how could it be said that long-distance relationships are the most difficult... Maybe it's because he realized this that he decided to bring me to Dali."

"Well... It's really hard for people to defeat themselves, so the two of you should get closer."

(End of this chapter)