I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 51 The Greatest Happiness Comes Only from Fantasy

I didn't want to smoke anymore, so I tapped my fingers on the table regularly, and then I made myself seem to have something to do... After a long silence, I finally said to her: "I really don't want to give myself a start. A chance for a new life?"

"I think, I really want to... But I'm more afraid of the consequences of being exposed..." After a short pause, she continued: "I always didn't understand Lei Lei before, but now I understand her... She really It’s a very poor woman, fate didn’t give her a chance to choose... But I, I am willing to fall. So, where do I have the guts to touch the true love that even Leilei dare not pursue!? "

I replied with a little displeasure: "So are you going to be like this for the rest of your life?"

Tao Zi was full of confusion, and after a long time, she said: "Maybe I will marry someone I don't love... In this way, I won't feel sorry for him, but if I am with Tie Nan, I will feel very guilty. Because I feel that I have not given my best self, this kind of guilt is really terrible, and it will even make me unable to taste the sweetness of love."

"Your mental burden is too heavy!"

"What else can I do, I regret it too, but I don't have another chance to choose... Mi Gao, you can take me to the airport tomorrow, I have to leave early."

"It's only been playing for two days!"

"It's not that fussy, I should go back to Shanghai... If Tie Nan asks you about me after I leave, you must not tell him where I am going."

Taozi's determination made me feel powerless, I felt sorry for her, but I couldn't do much, and finally I just said to her: "Let's do it, I respect your choice...but I also want to persuade you , even if you don’t accept Tetsuo, don’t stay in this industry anymore, this is really not a good place.”

"Ah."

After a while of silence, she asked me again: "What about you, will you find a girlfriend in Dali in the future?"

Immediately, Lu Jia's appearance appeared in my brain again. I haven't forgotten her, nor why she left me, so after a moment of disappointment, I whispered back: "No hurry... this There is no rush."

……

Back in my room, I found a bottle of "Feng Hua Xue Yue" beer from the refrigerator, then lay on the bed, drinking while scrolling through Moments.About 10 minutes ago, Yang Sisi updated a post. She initiated a request for help in Moments, asking if there is any good way to improve Dali's tourism image.

I don't know what kind of advice her friends gave her, but I really saw her enthusiasm for the inn, and I was a little moved in my heart.

This time, I took the initiative to send her a message: "What would you like to have for lunch tomorrow?"

"Hotpot, authentic Chongqing hotpot, Chongqing hotpot is the best!"

“Is there authentic Chongqing hotpot in Dali?”

"It's in Xiaguan, and it's opened by Chongqing people. I heard that the ingredients are all airlifted here from Chongqing."

"Well, I'll take you to eat tomorrow."

"Why do you miss me so much all of a sudden?"

"Steady the morale of the army, otherwise how can I buy you to continue working for the inn."

"It would be great if you could say a few words in a serious way... You must feel sorry for me for working so hard recently!"

"Why do you always like to make others feel sorry for you?"

Yang Sisi replied straightforwardly: "Because I lacked love since I was a child."

"Others' love is never as real as self-love. You have to learn to be an independent person, and then deal with the world independently, because no one can focus on you all the time."

"Look at it, I'll say you are cold-blooded, only a cold-blooded person would say such a thing."

I don't like people saying that I'm cold-blooded, so I didn't reply to Yang Sisi's message, and she didn't talk to me after she threw me a pile of shit with her WeChat emoji.

I continued to scroll down, and then I couldn't believe my eyes, because Ye Zhi, who hadn't posted on Moments for thousands of years, actually posted one... I took a closer look, and this Moments didn't record her life. , but an in-depth article analyzing the direction of the world economy.

Out of curiosity, I commented below: "You wrote this yourself?"

"Reprinted from a friend."

"It's insightful and in-depth, but I can't read it."

Ye Zhi remained indifferent as usual, she didn't reply, but because I knew her well, I could accept it, I just closed Moments and looked out the window for a while...

The moon is very round tonight, so the water surface of Erhai Lake is very brightly illuminated by it. Although this makes it (Erhai Lake) look less mysterious, it also has a little more lonely beauty.

So, I muttered in my heart, she seems to have not slept yet, is it because the night at Erhai Lake is too lonely?

Whatever the reason for her staying up late, I was really sleepy, so I drank the "Fantasy" from the jar in one gulp, then pulled up the covers and fell into a deep sleep.

……

In the morning, when I woke up, Tao Zi had already packed her luggage. She told me that she had bought a plane ticket from Dali to Shanghai at 08:30. , then drove to the airport.

I accompanied her to get the boarding pass, and helped her check in her luggage, and then the two of them stood at the security checkpoint together...

I asked her helplessly, "Will you come to Dali in the future?"

"It doesn't matter whether I come or not. The important thing is that you live a good life here... Lei Lei has never asked you for anything in this life. The only hope is that you come to Dali and live a good life. For this, she I have given you everything I can give!"

I lowered my head slightly, and replied, "I'm quite sad when you say that, and I hope you don't mess around in this industry."

Taozi stretched out her arms and hugged me, and then cried, crying very sadly...

I patted her on the back and asked, "What's the matter, what's the matter?"

"Mi Gao, I'm so sad... very, very sad!"

"Is it because you can't bear to part with this man who finally has a good impression?"

"Not exactly...I feel sorry for Leilei, and I think of myself...you know?..."

Taozi swallowed, but suddenly couldn't continue...

My heart tightened again, but fear did not overcome my thirst for knowledge, so I said to her: "I know you want to tell me about Wang Lei...you tell me, I have the right and obligation to know everything about her, I Not only her only fellow villager in Shanghai, but also her relatives."

Tao Zi left my hug, her makeup was already worn out, she choked up and said to me: "Do you know? The day before the accident, Lei Lei borrowed 15 yuan from me... I remember very clearly that day she was She said to me with a smile. She said: She decided not to be a princess anymore, she wanted to be your woman and come to Dali with you; She no longer wants to be intimidated by the opportunity... Originally, she wanted to stay in Shanghai for one more year, and then go to Dali to find you after earning enough money, but she couldn't wait. She felt that she had suffered so much. For many years, only when she thinks of walking with you can she be happy, so she doesn't want to wait any longer..."

At this point, Tao Zi broke down in tears: "Migao... Is Leilei sad?... She doesn't know at all, you never thought about leaving Shanghai, you were just perfunctory her, all you think about is always in Shanghai Buy a house with even one bedroom and one living room... But she did her best for you. She said that she was already very dirty, so she couldn't show up with guests when she was thinking of you anyway, so she Only then will you resist desperately, and desperately want to leave the last bit of beauty to you. In fact, she can avoid this accident! Obviously it is possible... She is really pitiful. When she was alive, the biggest Happiness is just a fantasy to go with you... Hehe, her happiness is just a fantasy... And you really made up your mind to leave Shanghai, but after her death!... You said, she worked hard to get it It's just these... How dare I touch love, the knife that kills people?... People like us are no longer worthy of love!"

I just stood there in a daze, and then I couldn't feel my own existence under all kinds of gazes... And Tao Zi didn't give me another chance to speak, she walked towards the security checkpoint with the most desperate gesture , It didn't take long before it disappeared from my sight...

Amidst people coming and going, I gradually became more sober, but the next moment I felt great pain in my heart... My pain at this moment stems from the regret that I was so close.

Peach is not quite right...

I regret it, if God gives me another chance to choose, I will bring Wang Lei to Dali that day, and then go to the fucking world, go to the fucking immorality, and go to the fucking one room...

(End of this chapter)