I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 490 If a person has a next life

I can't tell with what emotion I ended the call with Lu Jia, that is, at the moment I hung up, my view of the world suddenly changed. Those children who were playing were not so cute anymore. Among the flowers, all I can see is a broken flower branch and flowers that have bloomed on the flower branch.

I was thinking: If two people whose three views do not match must live together for the rest of their lives, how much punishment and how absurd is this?

I was in a bad mood, so I stood in the middle of the square and lit a cigarette for myself.

I don't know what the name of this square is, but the feeling it gives me is really not good, because the lights are weak and yellow, and roads are being built on both sides of the square, making a mess. Passing tourists, aren't they Walking around is jumping around... Just like life, if there is a crack, there will be regrets and inconveniences.

I only smoked half a cigarette, and my bare hands were frozen... So, I looked at the Lanzhou Ramen across the square, and the pot outside was steaming all the time. It's very warm...I don't want to eat yak meat hot pot anymore, I just want to live with a bowl of ramen.

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Yang Sisi came to my side, she must be aware of my emotions, so she asked me softly: "What did she tell you? It made you so unhappy!"

"I don't know whether she likes Mi Gao... or it depends on how many things Mi Gao's hands can hold for her... We haven't met each other this year, but I feel that the changes in her are Bigger than ever, is it because I'm a year older?"

"What about you, have you changed this year?"

I looked at Yang Sisi, speechless.

She whispered again: "Life is not about waiting for a sword... We all have to move forward... So, no matter what she becomes, I won't be surprised... But, she is more delicate and caring than you, so She felt the change in you first, and she has a sense of crisis..."

Yang Sisi didn't continue, but I knew what she wanted to say...Because I experienced these things personally, my feelings will only be deeper than hers, I have the answer in my heart, but I just don't want to face it squarely.

In my silence, Yang Sisi shook my arm, she said with a smile: "It's hard to come out once, please be happy..."

"I'm a little tired, I want to rest early... Let's go have a bowl of ramen, there's one across the street."

"We agreed to eat yak meat hotpot together... There is no more authentic place in Yunnan than Shangri-La!"

"I'm tired. If you really want to go, go by yourself...I'll eat ramen."

"what ever."

Yang Sisi was really angry about my failure to fulfill my promise, so after saying this, she walked to the other side of the square without looking back.I asked her to give me her ID card and open a room for her, but she ignored me.

But, is she really angry that I didn't keep my promise, or is she angry that I was affected by a phone call from Lu Jia?
Whether it's the former or the latter; I didn't lie to her, let alone perfunctory her...

I am really tired, maybe the moment I lie on the bed, the snow mountain in my heart will collapse, but I can only save myself, because Yang Sisi is also a peak on this snow mountain, any one of them will collapse It will crush me.

Just like the wind, flowers, snow and moon, if put together, it is a beautiful scenery... If you take it apart and use the wind, flowers, snow and moon to symbolize a certain woman in my life, that is pain!

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After eating a bowl of ramen at the Lanzhou Ramen Restaurant, I found an inn nearby, didn’t bother to wash up, and just lay on the bed. I thought I would fall asleep soon, but in fact, it was much easier than when I was outside. more anxious.

I sat up from the bed again, then stood by the window and lit a cigarette... From here, looking at the urban area, I can hardly see any tall buildings; the whole city feels very gloomy, It's hard to imagine what kind of carnival there would be under such dim lights. Probably everyone is like me, quiet and anxious at the same time...

In this state, I thought of Yang Sisi, and I don't know if she is eating yak meat hot pot now.

I was quite worried about her. I calculated the time and it was time to come back. About half an hour ago, I had already sent her the location of the inn by WeChat.

I called her and she didn't answer.

I sent her another message on WeChat, and I knew she was still angry, so I didn't expect her to reply immediately.I exited the chat interface, and at the same time, I found out that she had posted a Moments update 10 minutes ago.

"A person who smokes will never smell the smoke on his body; just like a person who is loved, he will never know how painful the person who loves him is!"

I stared at it for a while, then lowered my head, and put my phone on the coffee table next to it.

I wiped my face heavily with my hands, I was sleepy and wanted to sleep; but I also wanted to go to the restaurant that can make yak meat hot pot.

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While struggling, the phone vibrated on the coffee table again. I thought it was a message from Yang Sisi, but it was a text message from an unfamiliar number.

"Brother, you are a trustworthy person, so you must go to the detention center to pick me up... But I let you down, I am a cowardly person to the bone, I am very desperate, no one in this world cares about me Everyone looks down on me and doesn't give me self-esteem... I want to die, I am brave like this once in my life, and I have completely freed myself... I don't know why I sent you this message...Maybe Is it because I am afraid of being forgotten... If people have a next life, I will be reincarnated as a person like you. You seem to be confident in everything you do. Everyone respects you, and no one dares to bully you..."

In just a second, I was sure that this was the message sent to me on Wednesday...

Before leaving the detention center, I asked him for a mobile phone number, but he said that his mobile phone card was newly issued and he hadn’t recorded the number yet, so I wrote my mobile phone number to him, and he never contacted me. I didn't expect to send me a text message like this when I contacted for the first time.

Before I had time to think too much, I immediately called back, but he didn't answer.

When he called again, he had already turned off the phone...

My head was buzzing, and I almost lost my opinion, because only those who are determined to die will not give others a chance to persuade.

What kind of psychological changes has he experienced in the past two days?
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I put on my coat, picked up my phone, and before I could pull out the room card, I rushed out of the room. I don’t know if I can stop Wednesday, but I must do my best before I hear the result about him. sprint to the hospital.

At this moment of life and death, a second earlier and a second later will have completely different results.

My heart has reached my throat...

I have experienced Wang Lei's accidental death, and Ye Zhi's life and death are unknown... So, I want to cherish every living person around me; what I said on Wednesday is wrong, I am the one who cares about him and is willing to help him realize the value of life people.

He has to give me some time.

10 minutes is enough!
(End of this chapter)