I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 451
I connected to Yang Sisi's call, and at the same time, I also lit a cigarette for myself. I wanted to calm myself down, because in the conversation later, I would definitely lie to Yang Sisi, so I had to calm myself down first. Only then will every lie be fabricated to be watertight.

Taking a deep breath, I smiled and asked Yang Sisi, "Are you awake?"

"Since you know that I was sleeping just now, you must have seen the message I sent you, so why don't you reply to my message?"

"Aren't I afraid that I will disturb you to sleep... You are tired enough. You didn't let yourself catch your breath when you arrived in Shanghai, and then flew directly to the United States!"

"That's what I'm willing to do... Tell me quickly what you want to send me."

I subconsciously looked at the buildings standing in the distance. Not surprisingly, I saw countless unpredictable lights and thousands of windows, embedded in the tall buildings safely, motionless.

And this state after the combination of movement and stillness is my current mood, which seems to be calm but turbulent.

Squinting my eyes and taking a puff of the cigarette, I finally said to Yang Sisi: "Matsutake is on the market, I want to send you some matsutake."

"You still remember that I like to eat matsutake!"

"It's not difficult to remember what a person likes to eat... I still remember that you like to eat porridge with preserved eggs and lean meat. At that time, you lived in the mountains and rivers, and there was a time-honored porridge shop outside. You always liked to buy porridge there. I met Been here several times."

"Are you trying to kill me with memories?"

When Yang Sisi said these words, she was already a little choked up. She must have regarded the days of living in the mountains and rivers as a beautiful memory in her life.

Not only her, but I also regard Shanshuijian as a blessed place in my life. I met Nie Dangdang's father there, and it was because of Lao Nie that I was able to do a good job in Jiulongju. Fan career, he is my nobleman.

And what is more worth remembering than luck is the kind of leisurely, leisurely little days. When I am bored, I will go to the basketball court to play basketball for a while; when I am in pain, I will sit where I can see Cangshan Mountain and light a cigarette. , Then while looking up at Cangshan Mountain, I also underestimate my own pain and gains and losses.

This kind of time will probably never happen again. Thinking of it, I am also very sad.

I finally opened my mouth and said to Yang Sisi: "Only people who are not living well now will be killed by memories... But you are obviously living better than before, so don't be hypocritical with me!"

"Whether I had a good life before, you don't need to say..."

I smiled and replied: "Okay, it doesn't matter... If you really like the time you lived in Dali, then I will send the special products that can represent Dali to your home and let you live in Shanghai. , and live an authentic Dali life.”

"Don't make me happy, can you send Renmin Road? There are also basketball courts among mountains and rivers, Cangshan Erhai, I want them all!"

"If you're so greedy, then I can't help it... But matsutake can be sent to you first."

Only then did Yang Sisi stop talking and laughing, and then told me the detailed address... But I fell into an unclear and inexplicable sense of loss. I came to Shanghai to see her, but I had no choice but to I made up a lie about giving matsutake. In fact, what I want to give her most is not the matsutake, but this heart that I want to be good to her.

After being silent for a while, I changed the subject and said to Yang Sisi: "By the way, Yutou called me last night and said that he wanted to rent your villa. You two have talked about it, right?"

"Well, if he can accept my price, you can give him the key."

"Are you short of money to spend, or what happened?"

"If you don't make money, you're a fool!"

Yang Sisi's explanation is obviously not convincing to me. If she really had such an idea, she would not have left this villa idle for so long before, but this is her property, and she has absolute control, so, I It’s not easy to give more opinions, I just said to her: "The rent you want is too high. If you really want to rent, around 2 yuan is more reasonable."

"I'm at this price. If he thinks it's too expensive, he doesn't have to rent it."

"Well, if you think it's appropriate and he thinks it's reasonable, then I'll do it for you."

After a moment of silence, Yang Sisi asked in a low voice, "Are you really not going to live with me?"

"I really can't live in your place anymore. I bought another house in a villa in Cangshan, and I can hand over the house in a month and move in with my bags."

"...I'm so happy for you, I finally have my own house in Dali!"

I smiled and replied, "After I get the house, I'll invite all my friends out to celebrate. You can come too."

"No, you promised me that you would come to Shanghai to find me. If you don't fulfill this promise first, I will never go to Dali!"

"I will go to Shanghai, I will definitely go."

……

After finishing the call with Yang Sisi, I didn’t continue to move forward. I just sat on a bench in the street and lit another cigarette. At this moment, I didn’t need to look in the mirror to know how blind my eyes were. brilliance.

I'm quite annoyed with myself, at least I am annoyed with myself at this moment, because I am afraid of loneliness, but these loneliness are all found by myself.

After smoking a cigarette, my mood gradually calmed down, so I thought of another woman in Shanghai; if the information Dai Qiang just revealed to me was reliable, then she would be a What kind of living situation does she have, and how did she survive the more than a year of losing contact?

I really can't empathize with her, because I'm just an ordinary person, and I don't have the conditions to penetrate into those shady scenes and see clearly her grievance and helplessness.

Of course, it's also possible that Dai Qiang is talking nonsense... To say the least, sometimes when I go to see my younger brother from a different standpoint, I really don't like him!I always feel that when he deals with some things, he has a very clear purpose... He seems to really want to rely on Ye Zhi, a big tree, and then gain a firm foothold in Binjiang Group, so every time he talks about me and Ye Zhizhi He has very strong personal emotions mixed with everything in between.

He was not like this before. In my heart, he was just an ordinary young man from a small city, but once he was integrated into the big dyeing workshop in Shanghai, he was still colored.

He can't go back, and it's impossible for him to ride a tricycle and sell lo mei along the street like before.

……

Pressing to put out the cigarette in my hand, I continued to walk along the winding road to the next intersection...

For me, the night in Shanghai is deep. I want to choose the brightest street lamp among thousands of street lights, and I will walk along the light it gives, maybe to find myself, maybe to find the true meaning of life... or Or, just being a woman, is a hobby of the heart!

(End of this chapter)