I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 448 You Still Have a Choice

After arriving at the airport, I went to get the boarding pass, but I encountered a little trouble when I went through the security check, because the porridge is a liquid.I explained it for a long time and told the staff that the porridge was very thick and almost solid, and then I took another sip in front of her before I was able to pass the security check.

At 04:30 at night, the plane took off on time. I was very tired, so I slept all the way from Dali to Shanghai. When the plane landed, the sky in Shanghai was already bright, and the whole city was like a huge machine. In the state of operation, although I haven’t gone to the urban area yet, I have already imagined the scene of hawkers walking through the streets, and those people sitting in their cars waiting for the green light to pass… Although these are not unique to Shanghai , but it can also represent the characteristics of Shanghai.

I didn't rush to contact Yang Sisi, but went to the bathroom and washed my face with cold water, I wanted to look more refreshed.

I probably knew where Yang Sisi's home was. After calling a taxi, I vaguely told the driver the location, and then sent Yang Sisi a message.

"Where do you live, give me a detailed address, and I'll send you something."

At an intersection with a lot of traffic, the car has been blocked for 10 minutes, but Yang Sisi still hasn't replied to the message.

A bad feeling filled me, and I called Yang Sisi again, which turned out to be frustrating, and she had turned off the phone.There are two possibilities, either she is still asleep; or, she has already boarded the plane.

The latter is more likely, because in my memory, Yang Sisi does not have the habit of turning off her mobile phone while sleeping.

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At [-]:[-], I got off the car near Yang Sisi's house, accompanied by a sense of melancholy with nowhere to go, especially in this kind of villa area near the outskirts, where there are few vehicles, and I wanted to find some strange people. It is quite luxurious to relieve boredom, not to mention any hotels or guesthouses where you can rest.

However, I was not that disappointed, probably because I had already prepared myself not to meet each other before I came here, but I still felt a little bit regretful, after all, this was the first time I came to Shanghai for Yang Sisi since we met, but in the end I rushed empty.

I just carried the thermos box and walked towards the end of the road under the glare of the sun, and then sat down in a shady place, gradually losing hope in my heart.

However, Dali and Shanghai are so far apart, I really didn’t want to make the trip in vain, so I wondered where to go later... At least I could find some ideas for the career I want to do in the future; finding ideas in Shanghai is Yes, because there are many industries here that are in a relatively leading position in the country, so it is of great reference value.

Yes, in addition to Shanghai, Hangzhou, which is relatively close, can also be visited. Several high-tech parks in Hangzhou also have many projects, which are worth learning from.

Thinking about it this way made me feel even more relieved.

……

Before I was about to leave the villa area, I received a call from Nicole. On the phone, she asked me, "Mi Gao, did you use the kitchen last night?"

"Use it, what's the matter?"

"Where did you put the salt? I searched for it for a long time, but I couldn't find it."

"Go and buy another bag, I've run out and there's not much left in the bag."

"What did you eat? With so much salt, you won't be afraid to die!"

"Preserved egg and lean meat porridge, it's really useless to use your salt, there's just a little left."

Nicole laughed: "You didn't make it for yourself, did you? If you want to make this porridge well, you have to spend a lot of thought."

"Look at what you said, I spent my time making something for myself, what's wrong?"

"You get up in the middle of the night to make porridge with preserved egg and lean meat, chopped green onion, shredded ginger, and coriander, all of which you put in... Do you think you are a man who can be so meticulous about himself?"

The insight ability of a woman made me fearful, and I sighed and replied: "God gave you such a good talent, it's a pity that you don't need to be a detective!"

"Haha... I'm not interested in being a detective. I'm only willing to use this talent to deal with a man with evil intentions... Tell me, who is it for?"

"Who do you want me to make it for?"

"You are a ghost! I am just curious, absolutely without any position!"

I smiled, and then told her the truth: "It's fine if you don't take a stand... I made this preserved egg and lean pork porridge for Sisi, and then flew it to Shanghai overnight, but I didn't meet her. They are walking around outside their community right now."

"You're not kidding?"

"If you've ever heard a saying that people change people's hearts, you won't think I'm joking..."

After a short pause, I said again: "I don't know how to describe my feelings for her, but sometimes, I really want to do something for her."

"You have feelings for her?"

After a while of silence, I replied: "I don't know if it has something to do with the heartbeat... I just think back to the years we have been together, we have been in the same boat through thick and thin, and we will never leave... I feel that I can't do without this person by my side, she is always there When I am in the most difficult time, give me the most practical help, so I can't ignore her mood over and over again, or hurt her intentionally or unintentionally... Sometimes, I also think: Why always Live heartbreakingly for a woman who doesn't care about me, but ignore the one around me who really warms me up?...It's not worth it, really..."

Nicole was silent.

I asked again: "Nicole, when I think this way, does it mean that my attitude towards relationships has become more mature?"

Nicole finally replied: "You can be said to be mature, or you can be said to be avoiding... The nature of many things is actually just a difference of thought."

"It doesn't matter, I don't want to think about it so much anymore, just do it according to my own mind!"

"If you can really live in the moment according to your own mind, maybe there won't be so much pain... But as far as you go to Shanghai, I don't think there is anything wrong, because you still have a choice now ... I remember you told me that the premise of your marriage with Lu Jia is that neither of you has a better choice before she comes back... So, at this time, you don't need to feel guilty towards anyone, You still have your own space to choose the right person."

"Hehe, but who is the right one?"

"Ask yourself...you can't be so confused all the time."

I lit a cigarette, and lost my mind at the blue sky and white clouds, which are hard to see in Shanghai.

I don't seem to come to Shanghai just to get someone.

It was at this very moment that I suddenly wanted to see Yang Sisi so much, and then delivered this carefully made porridge to her... My request is not high, I just hope that she can finish eating in front of me, Give me another smile, that's enough.

Presumably, she will also be very satisfied... And this is the easiest way for us to get along.

It's a pity that the fate between us is really close, probably when I was flying to Shanghai, she also got on a flight to go abroad, and we just missed it... It also made me become a friend like Shanghai. Tourists who cannot be related to this city feel lonely here.

I am quite lonely, otherwise I would not discuss the meaning of so-called love with Nicole on the phone. In my opinion, this is the least worthwhile topic to discuss.

Because everyone has a different understanding of love, and the most important thing is to understand what you think in your heart.

At this moment, what I want to do the most is to see Yang Sisi, instead of letting our relationship be influenced by the so-called fate.

(End of this chapter)