I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 413

Knowing the news that Ye Zhi came back alive, I can no longer use words to express my mood at this moment... For a certain moment, I suddenly became calm again, and then I thought of those days when I was waiting for her to come back... It was like being in the dark In hell, waiting for a glimmer of light.

I couldn't be more sad in my heart. I was sad because after she came back, the first person she looked for was not me, and it has been a month...

Jian Zihan saw through my thoughts, and she asked me: "Are you sad now?...Because she didn't come to look for you, and she didn't even ask where you are!"

I was silent, and forced a smile again, and then replied: "I'm not sad...it's good that she's fine!"

"Are you going to find her?"

My emotions were on the verge of collapse, but I tried my best to hold back, at least I couldn't cry to Jian Zihan, and I said to her: "Over a year, there are too many things that can be changed, maybe she is no longer the original her... And I've always been the one I've been waiting for, and she should be the one who came to me...Since she didn't come to me, I shouldn't force it."

After a while of silence, Jian Zihan replied: "It's not what I thought... I thought you would go to her desperately after hearing this news, because I have experienced many things with you... So , I know better than anyone else how much she occupies in your heart!"

"Now is not the time to talk about this... I still say that, it's fine when she comes back."

Jian Zihan sighed softly, and asked again: "Where are you now?"

"It doesn't matter...that's all."

"Don't hang up the phone in a hurry... Maybe Ye Zi will come to you!"

I didn't want to hear Jian Zihan say these meaningless words, so I just hung up the phone...

I'm not a fool, one month is enough to explain everything.If she still has me, Mi Gao, in her heart, she will not live in Shanghai indifferently... I am not narrow-minded, because even Jian Zihan can find my new number, let alone her.

She forgot about me, or to put it another way, she didn't care about me anymore.

Of course I feel sad in my heart. I don't know what I have been waiting for for more than a year? ...Definitely not for the present result.

……

There is a kind of pain that hurts my heart, right at this very moment... I lie heavily on the reef, covering my face and crying bitterly!
The fish head beside me looked at me in bewilderment.

He won't understand; in his eyes, I'm just a greasy uncle who likes to play tricks... I really behaved like this in front of them, so no one can empathize with me, let alone know what I have gone through What.

So, consider me a sad clown.

I thought she was still in love with me, but that's not the case at all... Only then did I understand that the most painful kind of injury in this world is called emotional injury... Heartbreaking!
Crying, crying, and laughing...because she's alive...isn't that what I've been hoping for the most? !
……

"Brother Mi... you are a big man, you can't do it... I just asked you to quit a club, not to let you quit your wife."

"You have sore eyes... I didn't see that I answered the phone."

"What a freak you are! . . . Have you ever been mentally stimulated?"

I looked at the head of the fish and wanted to say something, but I was not in the mood at all... Then I turned my eyes to the direction where the fishing boat came back, feeling empty in my heart...

It was the news brought by Jian Zihan that took my whole body away, especially after venting, I felt that I was insignificant in front of the sea like a drop of sea water, which could be evaporated by the temperature at any time.

The violent sea breeze dried my face in a short while, and everything suddenly calmed down, including my emotions... I took out a cigarette from my pocket and lit it, and then I said to the fish head beside me: "Have you heard of Dali?"

"Who hasn't heard of Dali..."Blooming Heart", that movie was filmed there."

"That's where I come from."

"If you don't stay in such a good place, why come to this small fishing village?"

"a……"

After a short pause, I said again: "The first six months in Jimo should be the most comfortable time in my life... I think I am a person who can live higher than life, so what do you think of me? I don't even care."

Yutou was a little speechless, probably because he hadn't seen me talk like that.

I lowered my head and smiled, and said to him again: "Everyone in the club counts as one. I will treat you tonight, and you can choose the place."

"Am I right?"

"You heard me right, it came from my mouth... Not only will I treat you to dinner, but after today, I will also build a decent motorcycle to play with you."

Yutou looked at me incredulously, and replied after a while: "I don't believe it..."

"Is Liu Chao's KTM790 going to be sold?...I'll just buy his."

"His car has only run more than 8000 kilometers, and it is not cheap to sell."

"Just be happy, the price doesn't matter."

"You are definitely stimulated by something... You don't work, how can you get so much money?...Don't talk about treating us to dinner, and let us pay for it later!"

"Don't cheat you, go call someone... Liu Chao must call, I will talk to him about buying a motorcycle."

Yutou looked at me dubiously, and then walked towards the place where he parked his motorcycle...

Not long after he left, the fishermen and seafood shop owners also dispersed...I was the only one left in the vast sea, so I saw my heart more clearly...No inch is good .

I felt worthless for myself, and the word "waiting" suddenly became extremely ridiculous...

But I can't lie to myself, deep in my heart, I want to see her... see her current appearance, and also see her current mood... I want to know more, this more than a year , What did she go through.

But I can't go... because the teacher came out of nowhere...

If I am still a man who cares about dignity, I must reserve the last bit of dignity for myself.

……

The sky gradually darkened, the sea lost its face, and began to become unlovable. The sea roared and slapped the rocks under my feet. My trousers were all wet, but I didn't leave. I wasn't competing with myself. , just don't know where else to go...

I suddenly began to miss Dali. Although the Erhai Lake there is not a real sea, it has a kind of tenderness...it will make you comfort yourself and indulge yourself...but in front of the magnificent sea, you can only be strong, because in the face of When it comes, you are so small that you are not qualified to lie in its arms and feel its softness.

I'm really heartbroken...

What I have is a kind of pain that I can't tell others about.

Because no one has ever truly understood what kind of feelings I entrusted to Ye Zhi.

(End of this chapter)