I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 411 I'm afraid to stop
I held the postcard between my two fingers, and looked at the front and back again, as if I saw Yang Sisi secretly hiding the postcard in my suitcase.I smiled, then froze for a moment, and then put the postcard back where it was.

The reason why I was stunned was because I didn't think of what to do with this postcard for a while.

Last night, Yang Sisi tried her best to keep me, and today she came to help me pack my luggage.I don't know what caused her to have this transformation... maybe, the answer is in the postcard.

But I'm not a person who likes to make others "wait", so my mood is also contradictory... But I have to go, just like some animals must shed their shells.

In fact, the me now is the original Director Ma. The difference is that he chose to become a monk, and I chose to run away...but we will never really forget this place.

……

This morning, I asked Director Ma to have breakfast together. He ordered plain noodles, and I ordered beef noodles.

Director Ma complained that I didn't respect him. He thought I should eat vegetarian noodles like him... He said that he doesn't care what happens to me at ordinary times, but when he is with him, he must worship Buddha in his heart!

I gagged him with money.

I put 1 yuan in cash in front of him, and then said to him: "Your temple is going to rebuild the toilet... I will donate 1 yuan to charity."

"You're still thinking about this!"

"Remember... Is this 1 yuan enough for your merit monument?"

"The merit monument is full...the bathroom has also been repaired."

I sighed: "Hey, if you think about it carefully, it was already four or five months ago!"

Director Ma ignored my exclamation, and instead put the money on the table into his cloth bag... I grabbed his wrist and asked, "Haven't your bathrooms all been repaired? Why do you need this money?"

"Benefactor, nothing in this world is static, maybe next time the kitchen will not be able to be used... I will keep this money for you first, and when I use it, I will definitely write your name on the monument of merit" go up."

"You guys are really eating and drinking, you need someone to take care of everything!"

Director Ma laughed: "We as monks eat vegetarian food and chant Buddha's name for the purpose of saving sentient beings... You have not suffered."

I also laughed, and then said to Director Ma sternly: "Seriously, if your temple builds a stele of merit next time, don't write my name...write her name on it for me..."

"Whose name?"

I don't know if Director Ma asked this question on purpose, but I still replied devoutly: "Ye Zhi... I hope good people will be rewarded."

"You always believed she was alive?"

"I don't know... But as long as I think of her still alive, many pictures will flash in my heart, if we are still together... Whenever this happens, I will feel very comfortable, even excited... You know that kind of Do you feel it?"

The horse guide sighed.

I looked at him and fell into silence.I always pretended that I had almost forgotten about Ye Zhi in front of people, but I didn't expect that on the day before I left, I accidentally confided my heart in front of Director Ma.

At this moment, I feel sorry for Lu Jia.

During the period of Lao Mi's treatment, she has been by her company without complaint or regret. In the end, Ye Zhi was the only thing I could think of.

Am I really such a superficial person?Is it just because Ye Zhi has superior beauty and family background?So, no matter how others treat me with sincerity, I still can't forget her?

I was troubled by this problem, so I had to leave Dali and find a place where no human relationship was formed, so I could take a good look at myself.

If this is a task, it will be very difficult... Unless Ye Zhi is still alive, it will be difficult to verify the authenticity of this proposition!
But I will not give up, I am different from Director Ma, he is a person who is willing to be confused, but I like to ask the bottom line, I must know what I am living for, and what I am loving...

This may seem like a struggle with myself... but I really don't want to be an incomplete person.

Maybe, when I figure it out thoroughly, I will marry Lu Jia... Anyway, I have a house and a car!
However, I also have some doubts about Lu Jia.

I don't know if her change is because she saw that I have transformed my potential into real wealth... If, as before, I still achieve nothing, will she still do this?
I must leave Dali with these two doubts that I can't understand for the time being... and time will eventually give me the answer.

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Before leaving Dali, I went to meet some people, and some people did not make a special trip to say goodbye... For example, the beautiful and sexy Nicole, but I went to find the childish and fat Nie Dangdang, because I had a promise to Nie Dangdang.I said that I would teach him my other trick besides crossing people, which is considered as a birthday present for him this year.

Nie Dangdang is an out-and-out basketball madman. I don’t know how far he can go on this road in the future, but as long as he still calls me coach, I will teach him my good and practical skills.

……

The basketball court was sweating, and Nie Dangdang and I sat cross-legged against the barbed wire of the court again.

I handed him a brand new multifunctional basketball bag, and said: "You are growing now, and it is not affordable to give you basketball shoes, and you will not be able to wear them in a few months...so I will send you a basketball Backpack, play basketball well in the future.”

"Wow, it's Nike's limited edition for Kobe... Coach, why are you so generous all of a sudden?"

I smiled: "Before I leave, I want to make a good impression on you."

Nie Dangdang cried and asked, "Are you leaving Dali?"

"Ah."

"when are you leaving?"

"This afternoon."

"But I haven't prepared a gift for you...can you wait two more days?"

"No."

I have always been an uncompromising person in front of Nie Dangdang, so he looked at me very desperately, wishing he could take off his stinky socks and give them to me as a gift before parting; he has a very special kind of love for me. Worship, I especially want to give me something, let me not forget him.

In the end, he couldn't find anything particularly suitable for me either.After being depressed for a while, he asked me again: "Coach... are you going to take Yang Ruhua with you?"

"I'll go mine...it has nothing to do with her."

"I think she's pretty good too...especially when she smiles, her teeth are so white...so will you fall in love with her?"

"You fall in love with someone because her teeth are white?"

Nie Dangdang smiled "hehe", and then said to me: "Don't you think she is very childish except for her white teeth!"

"You little brat, how dare you call others childish?... Let me tell you, when she gets really ruthless, a hundred Nie Dangdangs are not enough to walk a round in her hands!"

"She was cruel to you?"

"There's no need to let you know about adults."

As I said that, I thought of Yang Sisi again.

It can be said that she is the woman in my life that will make me worry the least. I am not worried that she will disappear from my side, nor that she will covet me... For more than a year, the people around me Walking away, she was the only one who remained the same.

I don't know what kind of mentality I use to look at her, but as long as I think of her, there will be a soft place in my heart, and it's all about her.

I lit a cigarette, raised my head, and looked at Cangshan Mountain in the distance.

I didn't speak anymore, I just felt that there was a feeling that was as indestructible as Cangshan.

……

Before the evening, I drove my Jimny to the gas station to fill up the gas, and then drove on National Highway 214... After 20 minutes, I will arrive at the toll booth. After getting on the Dali Expressway, it means leaving completely Dali.

My speed was not fast, so I gave Yang Sisi a chance to catch up.

She was riding a mountain bike and appeared in my rearview mirror...

While pedaling desperately, she waved to me...

It was so windy that I couldn't hear what she was saying to me.

I could have stopped and waited for her...but I didn't do that, I was afraid that if I stopped, I couldn't help but take her with me...

(End of this chapter)