I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 40 Unexpected Love

Among the people present, Director Ma and Tie Nan are old fried dough sticks who have been in Dali for many years, and Bai Lu is a local.So, when I said the name of the inn "I'm waiting for you in the wind, flowers, snow and moon", they immediately understood.

In fact, today's Dali, in the eyes of many outsiders, is no longer simply a tourist city in Yunnan.Its freedom and looseness have given many frustrated young people a kind of alternative compensation, so that they have the motivation and space to be willing to waste themselves and wait for those who will never be able to wait.

And I am one of them, because there have been two women in my life, Lu Jia and Wang Lei. Waiting for them bitterly, and they will eventually teach me to adapt and accept this regretful world.

After a while, Tetsuo raised the beer can to me first, then nodded and said to me: "Okay, that's good, let's call it that."

Director Ma and Bai Lu also expressed their opinions afterwards. They both felt that calling this name would make the guests have some deeper reverie and speculation about this inn.In addition, we have also unified the concept of operation. The inn we want to do is not only for the function of accommodation, but also an output of spirit, and finally guides us to integrate into this world where regret and beauty coexist.

Some people may say that this is a show of affection, but we are not aimed at everyone in this world, and we cannot bear the responsibility of changing the world. All we want are the residents who meet us. In a corner of the world, with a tolerant heart, to look forward to, to wait, to regret...

In fact, no matter who you are, it is impossible to be happy all the time. Excessive pursuit of happiness will become a burden instead.It's better to calmly accept the inevitable sadness in life.

……

After some discussion, everyone fell silent, but I suddenly felt that something was missing.Looking back, I found that Yang Sisi, who was too drunk, had already fallen asleep on the table. No wonder she hadn't participated in the discussion of changing the name of the inn just now.That's fine, because I didn't regard her as my own person in this inn at all. Just before eating, I was still thinking about how to drive her out of the inn.

Even though it was summer, the temperature at the Erhai Lake was still very low. I saw that Yang Sisi was wearing thin clothes, so I said to everyone: "Let's drink here today, Bai Lu, please work hard, and send this burden to her own room. "

"Our inn doesn't have an elevator, so I'm not going to take her to the third floor!"

Director Ma rolled up his sleeves and replied, "Then I'll do it."

"Go away, you might as well come by myself."

As I spoke, I pushed Director Ma away, then supported Yang Sisi, and carried her up with Bai Lu's help.I walked very fast, afraid that she would vomit on me, but just after climbing to the second floor, I felt exhausted.Although Yang Sisi looked thin, she couldn't support her height of nearly 1.7 meters, and she was actually very heavy on her back, let alone climbing stairs.

I gritted my teeth and carried her to the third floor, and then opened the door for her, but after seeing the small wire bed, I changed my mind.I sent her to my ocean view suite and slept in her room myself.

I didn't mean anything else, I just thought that if she drank too much, it would be inconvenient to use the bathroom at night, and my room had its own bathroom.

……

I may not have a life of happiness, but I actually feel that living in Yang Sisi's room is more comfortable than living in the sea view suite. I seem to have found an unprecedented sense of security in this small space. I like being surrounded. Surrounded like this, but don't have to face the steel forest of the big city...

I lit a cigarette, then opened the small window, and looked at the Erhai Lake which was close at hand...

The moon is very round tonight, it is reflected in the Erhai Lake, swaying with the sea water, and some dead trees in the sea are standing beside it, as if trying to please it, I seem to hear their whispering Whispering, but when he came back to his senses, everything was so quiet again.

I kind of want to die in this quietness, and I kind of want to live forever in this moment.I don't think I'm contradictory, but I feel like I can live like this now, and whether I have a woman's company or not doesn't seem to be so important.I can really find a kind of fun based on quietness outside this small window in front of me. This kind of fun will not let me think about it. Buying a house is a very important thing, and getting married and having children, You can also temporarily ignore it.

I am like a blank sheet of paper, not polluted by the social atmosphere of drifting with the tide.

At this moment, I feel good about myself, I feel my independence and have a strong sense of existence, I am not an appendage of this society, I am a person who can exist independently!

……

After a while of silence, I picked up the phone from my hand again, and then sent a message to Ye Zhi, asking, "How many days are you planning to stay in Shanghai this time?"

"Come back this weekend, what's up?"

"I forgot to tell you at noon. I'm going to have a friend tomorrow, and I have to pick her up at the airport... If it's convenient, I'd like to borrow your car."

"Well, I left my car keys in the bedside cabinet in the room."

I was a little depressed, and replied: "Then how can I get into your room?"

"Couldn't you be able to turn over such a high courtyard wall, and you can also find a way to get into the room."

I almost choked on the smoke I sucked in, and after a while, I replied: "I'm already ashamed of what happened last time, so don't take it out and run on me, okay?"

If it was Yang Sisi, she would definitely chase after me and continue to taunt me, but Ye Zhi's temper is a bit cold, so she is very good at stopping it.This time, she just replied: "Go to my friend tomorrow to get the room card."

"Thank you then."

"no big deal."

Although Ye Zhi said it was a trivial matter, I don't think so. I think it's just human nature, so I will definitely fill up her car after using it, and then clean the car well.

In fact, I don't need to borrow such a good car to pick up Taozi at the airport.But I have such an emotion in my heart: because Wang Lei had no relatives before her death, Tao Zi was the only friend she got along with with sincerity, and I naturally love Wu Wu, so those who failed to repay Wang Lei, I instinctively wanted to repay Tao Zi .

I really don't want her to continue in this industry, and I don't even want her to go the way of Wang Lei again.I think, if Wang Lei has a spirit in the sky, she must also hope that I can persuade Taozi to the right path...

……

Maybe it was because it was too quiet, I gradually became tired, but before I closed my eyes completely, I heard a knock on the door, and then I heard Yang Sisi say outside: "Did you get the wrong room?... Why did I sleep on your bed, I feel so disgusting...a smell of a man!"

I was startled and replied, "Why did you wake up?"

"I get drunk quickly, and I wake up quickly... Get out of here quickly, I have a cleanliness freak, and I can't stand other people sleeping in my bed."

I am a thick-skinned person, but I was a little ashamed when she said it. I sat up from her bed in the next moment, and then replied: "You are just thinking too evil. When I was lying on your bed, how could you?" Didn't smell feminine? Because I didn't think about gender at all..."

"You are a stinky man!"

"My mother kindly let you sleep in a big bed so that you can use the bathroom, okay?"

As I spoke, I opened the door, and then I saw Yang Sisi leaning on the door frame. Although she spoke fluently, she did not move smoothly, and she still looked drunk.

She started playing drunken madness at me and said, "You're making me so angry...I'll punish you to sing me a song, or I'll call up Tie Nan and Director Ma and say you're treating me Conspiracy, sneaked into my room."

"Do I look like a singer?"

"I just want to force you to do what you are least good at, and then watch you make a fool of yourself..."

"Did I dig your ancestral grave in my previous life?"

"It's you who have been such an asshole in this life...you are the worst person in the world to me! When I'm drunk...I hate you so much! I really want to take your skin off!"

I took a step back, but didn't want to talk to her.

Pointing at me again, she narrowed her eyes and asked, "Are you going to sing or not?... If you don't sing, I'll yell!"

"Grandma, I can sing, I can sing!"

Yang Sisi put down the hand pointing at me, and then pinned her sideburn hair behind her ears. She looked at me not soberly, but she was afraid that my singing would not sound good, and she would not be able to see me making a fool of myself.

I feel very helpless, I have never dealt with such a capable woman in my life!I think, if one day I lose news of her forever, when I recall her again, it must not be her youthful and invincible appearance, but her deeds, she is really too capable, too capable!
……

Facing her, I can't sing songs with ideals and feelings. What I want to express is the most authentic side of this society and the most realistic love relationship between people.

She took out her phone from her pocket and started recording at me, but I felt like a gun, as long as my singing didn't satisfy her, her next move would be to shoot me.

Under her unreasonable persecution, I finally sang: "Your deep eyes, what password do you want to reveal? The corners of your hesitant mouth hide behind the serious back; the oppressive air surrounds the closed castle; The swan, there are endless stories you can tell; the lonely figure, accompanied only by the bell, knocks into the castle but cannot knock into your heart; the cold expression, only wind and frost cover my body, cover the world Hold on to your love. Who are you waiting for? Building a castle, waiting for the swans to inhabit, can't hide your empty heart. Who are you looking at? You have the world, but you can't have ordinary love..."

(End of this chapter)