I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 193
I left the villa area where Cao Xiaobei lived in a daze, and when I returned to "Jiulongju", it was already noon, and I didn't have any appetite to eat, so I just sat alone under the umbrella, dazed for a while, For a while, I was anxious, and for a while, I looked out of the street with blank eyes.

I seemed to be sitting and waiting to die; and this feeling of knowing that I was unwilling, but powerless, was really uncomfortable.

After 12 o'clock, Tao Zi came to Jiulongju again. She waved her hand in front of me and asked, "What are you thinking about?"

Only then did I come back to my senses and look at her, I didn't care what she came for, I just asked her: "Have you brought cigarettes?"

"Ma'am, do you smoke?"

"Give me one."

Taozi took out a pack of cigarettes from her handbag and handed it to me.

I lit the cigarette and looked up at the scorching sun sky. It seemed that only the space beyond the sun could make me temporarily forget the dust from the mundane world... I suddenly wanted to be a man beyond this world. Gods other than gods, then fuck with money, fuck with hard work, fuck with nothing...

I slowly exhaled the smoke from my mouth, then smiled dryly at Tao Zi twice, and asked, "Why are you here?"

"I just made a matcha cake at home. I'm thinking of you, so I sent it to you."

I don't speak.

Taozi put the cake box on the stone table, and then asked me worriedly: "I feel something is wrong with you, what's wrong with you?"

I drooped and replied: "Being lazy by the sun, I don't want to talk."

Tao Zi didn't believe what I said at all, so she asked again: "Did you encounter any trouble?"

I clenched my fist and hit my head hard twice... But I didn't know how to tell Tao Zi, and I didn't want to tell her, because it didn't help, and it only increased her worry.

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Brother Ping brought over a pot of tea, and Taozi turned to Brother Ping and asked, "What's wrong with him being so out of his mind?"

Brother Ping sighed, lit a cigarette, and then replied to Taozi: "He really got into trouble this time... Two locksmiths came this morning to change the lock he rented from Cao Jinbo. All 16 sets of shops have had their locks changed... He has already invested all the money he can, and he is about to open for business to make money, but suddenly he comes here, can he not be in a hurry!!"

Tao Zi was startled at first, and then asked Brother Ping: "Why did you change the lock over there?...Didn't it be agreed before!"

"You have to ask Mi Gao about this...I also know a little about it."

Taozi turned her gaze to me again.

I finally opened my mouth: "This is not something you can control, you all leave it alone."

Brother Ping smacked his lips and said to Tao Zi: "Look, that's what he said when I asked him just now..."

"I really don't know how to explain it to you... What are you supposed to do, let me be alone for a while... Even if I beg you, is it okay?"

When I said this, I could feel the veins on my neck bulging. At this moment, I was excited because I really didn't want to be disturbed, but the more this happened, the more worried Tao Zi was, and she was even more worried about her I said, "Mi Gao, we were friends when we were in Shanghai, and now we have settled down together in Dali... In this place, I don't care about you, who else can?"

I looked at Taozi, rubbed my hair at the temples with my hands, and said in a low voice, "I fell into a trap and became a pawn in someone else's game...I can't be more specific. Really want to help, just give me a little room to figure it out...I'm very confused right now...very!"

Tao Zi was silent for a while, and then opened her mouth after a long time: "Then you sit down for a while, I will come to see you with Tie Nan at night."

I gave an absent-minded "Yeah", and Tao Zi picked up her handbag and walked outside "Jiulongju". When she was about to reach the intersection, she looked back at me again.

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I just sat on the chair until dusk came. I didn’t know what time it was. I received a call from the courier, saying that I should go to Longkan to pick up the courier... I was confused for a while before I remembered It was the bacon and sausages sent by Lao Mi. He didn't know that the inn had been demolished, so he still sent things to that address.

I finally looked at the time, it was 04:30 in the afternoon, I managed to pack up my mood, and then rode that "Little Ninja" to Longkan.

Twenty catties of bacon and ten catties of sausage, so the express delivery was a big bag. After I got it, I tied it to the back seat, and then pushed the motorcycle to the tree before. It has not opened, and Director Ma and I will always sit under this tree and drink a few bottles of "Fantasy Flowers and Snow Moons" after finishing the renovation.

I can't help seeing things and thinking about people, and I don't know how Director Ma and Bai Lu are doing now, who have gone far away.

After standing for a while, I borrowed a large basin and towels from a small shop owner I knew nearby, and then went to Erhai Lake to fetch a basin full of water, and washed the "little ninja". After Yang Sisi left, I already regard it as my closest partner, and because of it, I will also think of those times when I quarreled with Yang Sisi.

I didn't mean anything else, I washed it clean, just to prevent myself from feeling too lonely in the predicament, because it has her shadow on it.

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After washing the car and returning the things to the owner of the small shop, I stood by the ruins of the inn for a while, and suddenly I felt hungry... Instead of buying instant noodles, I went to a nearby farmer’s house to borrow some shovel.

I dug a hole half a person deep by the Erhai Lake, and sat in it with only the tip of my head exposed.

I feel very safe, because this place is as big as a box, and I didn't look far away, and I didn't look forward and backward, as if it was my final destination... I'm not crazy, I just came here with myself who is about to die decades later close contact.

People, no matter they are humble or great, will return to the soil after death.

I lit a cigarette and leaned half against the pit, watching the leaves fall and listening to the tide of the Erhai Lake, and gradually relaxed...I imagined that this place is not barren, but a place that the world longs for. A lot of extravagance and prosperity... There is not a single lamp here that can be blown out by the wind. Behind all the psychedelic lights, there is a power source that controls... Where is the human heart?People's hearts are like moths, because they know that these psychedelic lights can't kill people, so they throw themselves into their arms desperately...Suddenly, when the power is turned off, the world is dark, and countless people are killed. Those fierce and insidious...

I think this world may be an oversized lie. We can see the light, but we don’t know where the light comes from... And after the light disappears, all the luxury and prosperity will no longer exist, just like I am sitting now This place... the light came, and another group of people flocked to it, and with a whoosh, the light disappeared again. These people were not burned to death, but were thrown to death... Repeatedly!
Thinking, thinking, I suddenly feel that everything can be indifferent, because the pain has made me see through...

But in the next moment, there was a sense of suffocation. The pit I was in was not a destination, but suddenly turned into a trap. I saw the criss-crossed knives, and the sharp edges cut towards me...

I threw away the cigarette and jumped out of the pit in a hurry.

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Exhaling heavily, the world outside the pit has not changed at all. The Erhai Lake is still the same Erhai Lake, and the setting sun has not changed for thousands of years. The moon over Haidong, the moonlight is very tender and blurry, but it is intertwined with the afterglow of the setting sun, which is inseparable.

Another gust of wind blew along the surface of the sea, as if some obstacles in my heart had been blown away, and only then did I see the strong desire to survive deep in my heart!
I finally want to find a place where I can cook, fried potatoes with bacon sent by Lao Mi, steamed sausages, and cooked a pot of white rice porridge!

Yes, I must live, for my body, for my family, for love, for this unpredictable world!
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Before I got on my motorcycle and was about to leave, I received a WeChat message from Ye Zhi in a desperate situation: "I have finished my work on XSBN, and I am going to fly to Dali again. "

(End of this chapter)