I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 177 Back to Shanghai

After I said what I felt in my heart, my mood became inexplicably depressed. Of course I don't want to cater to this bad social atmosphere, but I am the one who has fallen into it the most.I know very well that I can no longer pursue an ideal love with high spirits.

At this time, Nicole, who had been silent for a long time, finally said to me: "I don't like your mentality. A man's nature should be free and easy... I think your self-righteous fulfillment is the biggest harm and harm to women. Let down."

"Not every woman thinks like you... A woman like you is rare, and it's because you are rare... Your ex-boyfriend doesn't want to delay you... He should be in pain too!"

"It's ridiculous... I've never heard a more ridiculous thing than this in my life... What the hell is this fulfillment?... If this is also considered fulfillment, then where does my current pain and despair come from?"

"The reason why you suffer is because you don't know him enough... He doesn't know you enough either. You are all sacrificing for each other, but what you got is the worst result... I don't think the current him may be better than you. You are doing well."

Nicole shook her head, then picked up the glass, drank the beer in it, and said in a low voice after a long time: "Whether it's what you said or not, I won't wait for him... Being with me should be a virtue." Noble man, not pretending to be noble."

I don't know what to say, but I have a lot of thoughts in my heart. I feel that what Nicole said seems to be aimed at me... But Lu Jia is not her, and Lu Jia needs such fulfillment very much, otherwise She will not take the initiative to break up with me because of studying abroad; for Lu Jia, I never feel that I have done anything wrong.

At this time, Nicole said to me again: "Let's stop arguing about the concept of love... I can see that what you are confused about now is not the relationship with your ex-girlfriend."

"Yes...it's all in the past. I can neither turn back nor start over. I have chosen to let go of it in my heart."

After saying this, I changed my sitting position, and then asked Nicole: "When you were with your ex-boyfriend, did you really feel pain because you had nothing?... For example, in a place like Dali , you don’t have a house, no car, and even such a small thing as buying clothes, you have to plan to save money... Having a child, fulfilling the responsibilities that an adult should have, such a big thing is even more unthinkable Dare to think...over time, your mentality hasn't changed at all?"

"If we don't have the ability to have children...we don't have children, because we don't live for children...we can't afford clothes, so we can wear simpler ones. I think that as long as two people grow old together, these things are fine. It's a thing."

"You are really a very special woman... If your view of love can represent most people, the relationship between men and women will not become as cheap as it is now!"

After I finished speaking, I lit another cigarette for myself... In the dispersing smoke, I thought of Ye Zhi, and I couldn't help asking myself, did I really overcomplicate her?Perhaps, like Nicole, she, who is 3000 kilometers away, regards love as pure?

This time, Nicole didn't answer my words, and she fell into a state of trance again.

When I was about to finish smoking a cigarette, I said to her again: "I have a question to ask you."

"You said."

I calmed myself down first, and then I said, "I have a female friend...she is amazing...excellent in every way...uh...that's not the point, the problem I'm having right now is...she's in the hospital , I don’t know if I should rush back to Shanghai to see her?… If it’s just an ordinary friend, this kind of concern seems a bit too much… But, if I don’t go back… I feel like I’ve been given something in my heart It’s the owner of the card, so I can’t feel comfortable anymore!”

"This matter is easy to solve. If you think it's a bit too much to go back to see her...then you can lie to yourself and say that you are going back to see her." After a short pause, Nicole said again: "Like someone , why do you have to hide it? Just because she is so good?"

I froze for a moment, and replied: "Are you a bit older, you always think more about emotional matters."

"I'd like to know, when you were young, what was it like when you were dealing with feelings?"

I touched the back of my head, and then some images appeared in my brain, and I said to Nicole with a relaxed smile: "If I were five years younger, I would definitely fly to Shanghai overnight, and then make something fun Leaves on the Avenue Elysées, go romance with her, confess...I know women too well, as long as they are sick, they are easy to be vulnerable. When people are fragile, it is natural to need to rely on...Sometimes love is a kind of satisfaction , and this sense of satisfaction comes from being relied upon.”

"Hehe... If you get such support and she doesn't give you love, what should you do?"

"Stalk her... I have such a thick skin... And this kind of situation is basically impossible with me... I think as long as I hug her and give her a passionate kiss, no matter how hard I am Your heart must also melt under my heat!"

I just kept talking too much, and Nicole also showed a contemptuous expression on her face, probably because I have been very conservative before, so when I showed this fanatical side, she was so dismissive, But these are really things I could do when I was young...

I asked Nicole, "Don't you believe me?"

"I don't want to believe a word."

I didn't speak, just took out another cigarette from my pocket and lit it, and then imagined the pictures I just said in my brain... I didn't feel like a hero, but more like a ruffian who took advantage of the situation, because relying on The heart won by such indecent tricks is really not something that can be tolerated casually.

At this time, Nicole handed me a glass of beer, and said to me in a serious manner: "Rice cake, this is a glass of magic wine, you will be five years younger if you drink it, believe it or not?"

"Don't be kidding... If I can really be five years younger, I will buy lottery tickets. In the past few years, I have memorized the winning numbers of each lottery lottery on my mobile phone."

"Can you pursue a little bit?"

As Nicole spoke, she handed me the glass of wine in her hand that would make her five years younger if she drank it... She insisted on drinking it, but I felt that such a pastime was too boring, but I have always turned around not being a woman, In the end, he raised his head and drank the "sacred wine".

It's impossible for me to be five years younger, but Nicole wants to use this to relieve the demons in my body... Yes, through talking, I know what kind of man she admires, so I also want to transform me into a more carefree one.

I also wanted to be free and easy, so I joked and said to Nicole who was waiting for the result: "I'm really five years younger... I can't help but want to find a girl to play hooligans."

"Go ahead and find the one you like..."

"Just pretend to stop by to see her?"

"It's really embarrassing to do this... But if you really have a hurdle in your heart, that's the only way to go."

I smiled, then called the waiter, and asked for some snacks like melon seeds. Nicole didn't intend to leave, but can a sad person comfort another sad person, can it really be comforted?Or, what we want is not comfort, but just someone to talk to?
Nicole said to me again: "If you like it, go for it... Do you want the woman to speak first about emotional matters?... If she really minds the gap between the rich and the poor, she will refuse, if she doesn't mind , but you think so much yourself, it really looks ridiculous..."

"Forget it... don't think so much, go and see her first."

Having said that, I smiled and said again: "I said a hundred reasons not to go to see her, but I still want to go in my heart."

Nicole glanced at me and said nothing more, while I took out my mobile phone and booked a flight ticket from Dali to Shanghai at noon tomorrow.

(End of this chapter)