I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 130 Abandoning the Sunshine of the World

In the past two days, Yang Sisi has been not very friendly to me. Although I met here by chance, I didn't intend to go to her, so after I put the phone away, I went back to the little place where I had teppanyaki with Ye Zhi. shop.

When I sat down, I realized that Ye Zhi had put a lot of baked things on my plate, I made her wait for a long time...

I said to her with a hint of apology: "My dad is like this. Now as long as he calls me, he will talk about many things."

Ye Zhi smiled, but said nothing.

I added some hot water to her cup, and then asked her, "How long are you going to stay in Dali this time?"

"Two days."

I looked at her, with a little curiosity, and asked: "Just ask me, can you find fun in the current life of running around?"

"Why do you ask that all of a sudden?"

"People and people go from unfamiliar to familiar, that's how you ask."

Ye Zhi and I looked at each other, and replied after a while: "Any kind of state that lasts too long will not be fun."

"Then do you have a life you particularly yearn for?"

This question seemed to be very difficult for Ye Zhi, so I said to her in a guiding way: "For example, some people yearn for life in Dali... To be more specific, it is under the Cangshan Mountain, next to the Erhai Lake, an inn, a A dog, a book, a cup of coffee, a few friends, and the last of my life."

Ye Zhi smiled and replied, "This is the life of literary youth."

"Aren't you a literary youth?"

"Not counting... I think young artists are very good at shaping their own lives."

Ye Zhi and I looked at each other, only to realize that she had used a speaking skill to avoid my question without knowing it, but she still didn't tell me what kind of life she yearned for .

I shrugged and smiled at her.

"Am I right?"

"You are right. The literary youths I know are very good at shaping life, but you haven't answered me, what kind of life do you yearn for... I think that as long as people are alive, they must have yearning. The basic drive to live."

"Yes, but I don't want to tell you."

"Didn't you consider me a friend?"

"If you treat me as a friend, then first tell me what kind of life you yearn for."

At this moment, I feel that Ye Zhi and I are like two preoccupied children. We are thinking carefully about a piece of candy, but why is it so difficult for us to say the beautiful word "longing" from our mouths?

After thinking about it, I realized that we are all adults, talking about ideals and longings is already a very extravagant behavior, because we have worked hard for this, so we know how insurmountable the gap between our abilities and the ideals in our hearts is. distance.

In fact, we are not afraid to talk about ideals and yearnings, we are just afraid to see an incompetent self.

With this kind of understanding, I finally opened my mouth and said to Ye Zhi: "It's quite boring to talk about something that can't be realized in a lifetime."

"Then why are you still asking me?!"

"Because I'm bored right now...haha..."

I smiled happily, but my heart was not so happy, and Ye Zhi remained calm, she took a sip of hot water from her cup, and then turned her attention to the bustling street.

After a moment of silence, I saw Yang Sisi walking out of the coffee shop. She was carrying a single shoulder bag and was submerged in the crowd. I should have thought she was chic, but her back looked different. With such a lonely look, her figure stretched long under the street lamps, and her footsteps were scattered and disorderly.

……

After dinner, Ye Zhi and I strolled around the ancient city for a while, and then drove to Erhai Lake, because we are not very noisy people, and the tranquility of Erhai Lake is our enjoyment.

I parked the car in the parking lot of "Haitu Inn". At this time, "Haitu Inn" is not as deserted as when I first came to Dali. Like our inn, it has also entered the first batch of resumption of business. in the list of inns.

However, the situation after the two inns is different. We will face demolition, but it can survive in peace and stability.

Amidst the constant sound of waves, I lit a cigarette, and then asked Ye Zhi, "Can you take out your gift now?"

"Strictly speaking, it's not a gift, it's a bit of compensation." After a short pause, she said, "Before I came to Dali, I had already communicated with the demolition office. During the negotiation stage, you can continue to operate. Buy you some time."

I was overjoyed, because for us at the moment, time is money, if we can open for an extra month, it will be a lot easier financially, and I asked Ye Zhi: "How long will the negotiation work take?"

"About a month."

"Enough, one month has ensured that we minimize the loss... But, isn't this kind of intercession against your usual business logic?"

Ye Zhi was silent for a long time before replying, "Only this once."

I can see that this kind of talk about human feelings made her struggle in her heart...

After a very long silence, she asked me again: "What are your plans for the future?"

"I will definitely stay in Dali, but I haven't figured out what to do yet."

"I can see that you are confused."

I pointed to my eyes with two fingers, and then said with a smile: "Maybe it has something to do with my vision... Making money is still quite difficult for me...Really, sometimes thinking about it, I can't help it." I don’t know where I fell, and I don’t know where to get up.”

"On the contrary, I think you are reluctant to tear down the wall in your heart."

"How to say?"

"Because you have limited yourself to a mediocre person in your bones, how can the world welcome you with an open attitude... For you, Dali is a wall. You feel that the world inside the wall is warm, so you give up. There is sunshine all over the world, but even in Dali, there will be snow on Cangshan Mountain in winter!"

My heart seemed to be hit by something. I took a deep breath and fell into deep thought...

After a long time, I said to her: "I have thought about what you said, but I still don't want to leave Dali, let alone go back to Shanghai."

"I wonder why you are so stubborn?"

"It's about my promise to a person... In fact, we are all the same. You never opened your heart to anyone because of a promise to wait, and I also closed myself in Dali because of a promise...but I am more than you. I am very lucky, because here I met friends such as Director Ma, Tie Nan, and Bai Lu who can get along like family members, but you have been so lonely all the time... Compared to me, making money is a very difficult thing for me ...Happiness from the heart is harder for you!"

Ye Zhiqiang smiled, and replied: "So, we are all poor people who have been delayed by promises."

"I'm okay, because there are too many things in my life that I can't get, so I'm used to this kind of regret... But you, I'm afraid not!"

Ye Zhi didn't speak anymore, and I didn't feel that I had won this debate, because I never regarded her as my enemy, she was my friend arranged by fate.

In theory, if we hadn't helped her once on the highway, the difference in class would have separated us into two worlds and never met.

(End of this chapter)