I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 125
After leaving the "Bad Monkey Bar", I chased to Yeyu Road again, but there are so many alleys here, once Yang Sisi and that young man got into a certain alley, there was absolutely no way I could find it, and just like that There are hundreds of inns gathered on a not-so-long road, and it is even more impossible for me to ask them one by one.

I sat down at the door of a closed shop, and then called Yang Sisi again, but she had already turned off the phone, which made me feel that my judgment of the situation was more accurate.

To be honest, her appearance really made me feel powerless. I couldn't interfere with her private life too much. I felt that I had done my best, because everything she did seemed to be voluntary. But I learned from no one.

I took out a cigarette and lit it, and then took out my phone from my pocket. There was an unread message from Dai Qiang on it. He was very excited because he had already learned from Ye Zhi that he had been accepted by the hotel Yes, and as he predicted in advance, the hotel arranged a place for him to stay. Although it is not a single room, it is also in a very prosperous area of ​​Shanghai. This is a lot of people who have just arrived in Shanghai to work hard, and they will not enjoy it at all. treatment.

I can't really share his joy, because I know what he will face in the future. When he is troubled by a house one day, looking back at today's joy, he will find it very childish and ridiculous... and For us foreigners, Shanghai has never been a simple city. There is no absolute joy here, but there is enough confusion and sadness.

I can only encourage him, come on, come on, come on!

……

Halfway through smoking a cigarette, the street singer across the road finally finished singing the song "Go to Dali", which is very popular in Dali. He took out a very old cup and took a sip of water, then flipped through the lyrics book , the familiar melody came out from between his strings.

That's right, it's the song "Goodbye to the Twentieth Century"...

This is a very unpopular song, so it was the first time I heard it sung in Dali.

I listened intently, and then remembered some of my mood that day. My hand was already burned by the cigarette, but I didn’t feel much pain. When I came to cry", my emotions were a little out of control. This kind of emotion made my tears fall secretly.

Although I don't think of Wang Lei very often, as long as I think of it once, it will hurt my heart.At this moment, I really want to hold her hand tightly, but all I can see is her smile that emerges in my mind... She is a woman without a home, but she hopes that she will become the wife of a certain man, and she will be the wife of that man. Have a baby so she can have a home again.

I don't remember the exact words, but that's what it means...

……

Just when I was immersed in this sad mood and couldn't extricate myself, someone slapped me on the back suddenly, and when I raised my head, Yang Sisi was holding a glass of smoking drink and looking down at me...

I hastily wiped away my tears, thinking to myself, the drink is so smoked, she probably didn't see what happened to my face.In my heart, Yang Sisi should not be aware of these things, these emotions, she is a person from another world, and will not understand the pain of another world.

"Yo, yo, yo... are you crying?"

"You are blind."

"Why are you so angry? ... It's not a shame to cry, I have to cry several times a day!"

"I'm not crying...it's very windy here."

Yang Sisi seemed to be very interested in this matter, she sat down beside me, then pointed at my face, and said: "I have the most experience in crying, you are definitely not blown by the wind like this of."

"I want to cry when I see you, okay?"

"Do I make you feel bad?"

I glanced at her, then abruptly changed the subject, and asked, "Didn't you leave with a handsome guy, why are you back?"

"I don't think it's interesting to see you cry..." After a short pause, she pushed my shoulder with her hand and asked again: "Hey, why are you crying?"

"Go and find your handsome boy."

Yang Sisi ignored it at all, and she said with a half-smile: "...how about you cry for another two yuan, I haven't seen enough!"

"Don't overdo it... My patience has a limit."

"I'm just going too far, what can you do to me?"

While she wasn't paying attention, I touched the drink in her hand, and the drink spilled all over the floor. It wasn't enough, and I grinned at her again, trying to show her my beastly side.

Yang Sisi cried when she said she wanted to cry, but just when I thought she would take revenge on me, she grabbed my clothes and said, "You made me cry because you wanted someone to cry with you?...You succeeded, Come, let's cry together."

"Stop making trouble... Let's talk about your business first. What did you and that young man do?"

"Do I need to tell you?"

"I'm worried about you...Those young people who go to bars for nothing are not good things."

"I just love playing with them."

"Girls need to love themselves."

"I just like to give up on myself."

I looked at her, and she also looked at me directly, I finally shook my head and replied: "I hope you don't regret what you said to me now... Yes, I came to the ancient city just to find you, Because I'm worried that you will hang out with some dubious people, but if you don't care about it yourself, just pretend I haven't been here."

"Who will have you being nonsense!"

I got up, and before I left, I said to her again: "Whether you come back tonight or not, I will leave the door open for you. If you still want to go back in your heart, go back early."

When I was leaving, I looked back, Yang Sisi didn't follow, and I didn't look back, because I think the matter of depravity is similar to seeking death. If you really want to die, no one can stop it. I can do it. Yes, I can only tell her the pros and cons and my concerns. If she is still unwilling to distinguish between good and bad, then I really have nothing to do!
……

Back at the inn, Director Ma, who was absent for a day, also came back. He was sitting in the bar eating cooked instant noodles. I sat down opposite him and asked him, "Where's Bai Lu?"

"She's back in the lower gate."

I lit a cigarette, smoked it for a while, and said to him in a chatty tone: "What do you think about the matter between you and Bai Lu?"

Director Ma glanced at me, and then pretended to be stupid and replied: "It's all old things, what can I think?"

"Shouldn't it be possible to bring up anything that has something to do with the past?"

"It's not that it can't be mentioned, but it's meaningless to mention it, so why waste time and talk nonsense."

"Ren Bailu is waiting for you... Seriously, your foolish pretending is really not up to standard!"

"I don't need her to wait...she just lives her own life."

"With her current state, can she live well?"

"I'm not her savior either."

"We are brothers, if you have any concerns, you can tell me."

"Others can't take care of our affairs...don't ask."

Director Ma seemed to dislike other people talking about this topic with him, so he left the bar after eating half of the noodles, probably back to the small farmyard where we lived.I was also quite tired, but I couldn't go back, because I was a man of my word, since I had promised Yang Sisi that I would keep the door for her, I would definitely wait here until she came back.

In fact, I still want to believe that Yang Sisi is a serious girl, because her requirements for life are very sunny, so she should not put herself on the dark side of life, and then go to ruin herself and her reputation.

……

Lying on the sofa in the bar, I fell asleep vaguely, and it was morning after I fell asleep. The first thing I woke up was thinking of Yang Sisi, and I don’t know if she came back last night. There's a good chance she won't come back, and if she does, there's no way she won't wake me up.

But if she didn't come back, how did she spend the night?
I am very conflicted by her. On the one hand, I believe that she has strict requirements on herself; on the other hand, I feel that young people nowadays are generally unreliable. They are easily dominated by passion and do something wrong. Things, and her absence at night is already a bad omen.

The phone vibrated, I picked it up and looked at it, but it was a message from Ye Zhi, she said: "Mi Gao, our project in Longkan has passed all inspections and will start soon, I hope you are mentally prepared... In addition, I want to say sorry to you, I don't want to violate your interests in my heart, but I have to do this... hope you understand."

I feel so complicated that I don't want to talk...

After a while, the door of the inn was finally pushed open, and Yang Sisi really didn't come back until this time.

(End of this chapter)