I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 100
After midnight, many vendors in the snack business will rush to the Yu'er Road in the ancient city to set up a stall, specializing in the business of those depraved young people in Dali who like to spend the night. Generally, at this point, when they just come out of the bar, there will be Accompanied by a woman with heavy makeup, she doesn't look like a serious girlfriend at first glance. They got together this night just to relieve loneliness.Anyway, there are many inns in Dali, as long as there are beds, they can become their home this night.

Tie Nan said that he used to get mixed up like this.

The three of us found a barbecue stand that sold draft beer. We first ordered a barrel of draft beer and then a case of "Fenghua Xueyue", and then started to drink.

Tie Nan first raised his glass to Director Ma and me, and said: "I hope to meet a group of brothers like you when I go to Chongqing... To be honest, I am very reluctant to part with Dali. Came here with a dream..."

Director Ma replied: "Stop talking nonsense, drink first."

Tie Nan drank a whole glass of beer in one gulp, and after refilling the glass, he said: "But after being drunk and dreaming, people still have to return to real life. Taozi is right, the two of us will be like this for the rest of our lives. I am very capable, but I can’t let my children lose at the starting point, and I can’t let them go back to our old path, so I have to plunge into big cities in the end. After all, the educational resources there are not comparable to Dali, and children can be there early. exposure to mainstream society…”

"Come on...then it's not called mainstream society, it's called sophistication, it's called hypocrisy!"

Tie Nan glanced at Director Ma, then smiled awkwardly and said, "It's better to be ignorant than to be bullied by others in the future!"

Director Ma asked Tie Nan to have another drink, then turned to me and asked, "Mi Gao, what do you think about the two of them going to Chongqing?"

"Chongqing is a big river and a lake, and Dali is a small river and a lake... In fact, they are all the same."

Director Ma slapped the table and echoed: "Isn't that the reason? Who the hell dares to say that Dali can't produce the number one student in the college entrance examination, can't produce celebrities, and can't produce entrepreneurs?... Tie Nan, listen to me In a word, if your child inherits from you in the future, you will feed him elixir every day, and he will be a disaster... Whether the child is good or not is really not determined by the city where he lives, it mainly depends on genes!"

"Look at you hanging man... Either you don't speak, or if you open your mouth, you'll choke until I can't even drink!"

Director Ma poured himself a full glass of beer, and after drinking it in one breath, he replied in a low voice: "I just don't want the inn to be transferred in such a muddle-headed way... When I first took over, I thought about it. This inn is to be done as a career for the rest of my life... Now I am hanging like this, as if I have lived half of my life and then died... This feeling is uncomfortable!"

Tie Nan sighed, filled the glass as well, and drank it silently.

I felt uncomfortable when they were like this, and then I fell into a trance, as if I saw the three of us participating in a war with cold weapons, with corpses everywhere around us, and we were holding steel knives dripping with blood, facing the enemy There are thousands of troops... Tie Nan was the first to kneel down because of Taozi behind him, Director Ma raised his knife and laughed wildly, I am alone, life and death are the same for me...

Thousands of troops were harvesting lives, while crushing us. Just when I was about to see the result of who lived and who died, a strong light shot at me, and I came back to my senses. Spotted a Land Cruiser parked on the side of the road.

My heart skipped a beat. This cruiser was exactly the same as Yang Sisi's. When the door opened, I even stopped breathing... But what got out was a young man with the appearance of a rich second generation and a fashionable girl. After looking at it, I realized that this car was different from Yang Sisi's. The wheels of this car had been modified into black.

After clearing up my mood, I also poured a glass of beer and finished it. At this moment, Tie Nan finally spoke to Director Ma and said, "I'm sorry, buddy... But I'm not living alone now. Tao Zi is a woman who can live a life. She's thinking a little far, but I can understand her...and hope you understand me."

Director Ma lowered his head, then raised his glass again and said to Tie Nan with a smile: "Since you have made up your mind to go, I won't say anything... This drink is my practice for you. No one is allowed to compete with me to pay."

Tie Nan drank three cups in one breath, and I could see that his heart was also tormented by whether the inn turned or not!
I don't know how long it took, the three of us drank all the beer, Director Ma wobbled and settled the bill with the boss, and then came back and put Tetsuo on the shoulder... He was very hard, because He knew that after this farewell, there would not be many chances to meet again.

Similar scenes reminded me of Yang Sisi who had already left, and I don't know how she spent her first night after returning to Shanghai.

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By the Erhai Lake, the three old men unbuttoned their trousers, and took advantage of the night to urinate in the grass. Director Ma shook his shoulders first, but he was unwilling to take the thing back. He asked Tie Nan Said: "Do you still remember why you came to Dali?"

"Build a house by the Erhai Lake, spend time and wine... and then watch other people live a foolish life in a big city."

Director Ma willingly took his stuff back, he patted Tie Nan on the shoulder again, and walked to the small farmyard where we lived, but looking at his lonely back, I It felt like the night had only just begun with him.

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After Director Ma left, Tie Nan and I sat at the entrance of the inn. Although there was still a little distance from the Erhai Lake, the tranquility of the Erhai Lake was not lacking.I handed Tie Nan a cigarette, and then asked him, "How long have you known Director Ma?"

"I forgot, but he is my first real friend since I came to Dali... He is very righteous. Although I was not familiar with him at first, he took care of my food and drink for half a year... Later I got him from home. A sum of money came to open the Fengrenyuan Hotel."

"Yo, this is the grace of nurturing!"

This was a joke, but Tie Nan nodded and replied: "At that time, the bars in Dali were not as popular as they are now. Director Ma couldn't find a place to sing, so he went to the Erhai Gate every day to sell songs on the street. It depends entirely on other people's moods to eat, so there are more and less, and at the worst time, the two of us ate steamed buns for a month..."

"You have fucking arms and legs, why can't you find some work for yourself?"

"It was a period of decadence at that time, and I was not interested in doing anything... Director Ma didn't talk much, but he was a sensible person...so the last song every night was "Broad Sea and Sky". I know he It was sung for me...because he always said that I had abandoned my ideals."

"Finally woke you up one day?"

Tie Nan took a puff of his cigarette and replied, "It's not like... I was really embarrassed to follow him to eat and drink all the time, so I set up an inn."

I smiled, but I didn't expose him... I think his change is entirely due to the inexhaustible spirit of Director Ma, because in terms of suffering, Director Ma may not be less than him, since Director Ma can rely on himself If he survived with his craftsmanship, why would he continue to be so depressed?Therefore, it was Director Ma who changed him, not the embarrassment he said.

Tie Nan flicked off the cigarette ash, and hummed: "Today I watched the snow drift by in the cold night, and I floated into the distance with a chilled heart. I chased after the wind and rain and couldn't distinguish the traces in the fog. The sky and the sea are vast, but you and I will change... Forgive me for being unruly, indulgent and loving freedom in this life, and I am also afraid that one day I will fall, and anyone can abandon my ideal, even if I am afraid that one day you will be with me..."

After singing halfway, he stopped, and then smiled again: "At that time, I listened to this song every day, and I almost threw up; but now, when I can't figure out the direction, it's really good to listen to it." It works..."

"Yes, I also like this song. It is a memory of our generation... Occasionally take it out and listen to it, it really gives people the strength not to fall down."

As I spoke, I also lit a cigarette for myself, and then recalled the melody of this song in my brain... My heart slowly warmed up, and I also felt that if I really took a sum of money and returned to the small mountain city, it would be a real shame. An expression of incompetence, being born as a man, our pursuit of life should never be just that...

I just smoked and beat the beat to the melody in my brain...

After a while, I finally asked Tie Nan, "Who was framed by Director Ma to go to jail before?... I always feel that this has something to do with Bai Lu."

(End of this chapter)