If I have you, I will be happy forever

Chapter 34: The Difference Between Love and Like

Jia Lingke was quite miserable when she was a child. Her parents who were both laid off could not earn money in China, and their lives were very difficult.At that time, it was popular to go abroad to seek gold. In the end, her parents discussed and gave all the money in the family to his father for smuggling.Dad smuggled to the United States, and Jia Lingke and her mother continued to live a difficult life.Her mother relied on the meager income from handicrafts to support her education, and Jia Ling was able to live up to her expectations, and her grades were always among the best.Jia Lingke's mother hopes that her father will come back from the United States soon so that they can live a better life than they are now.Her mother didn't expect to live a wealthy life, as long as she had enough food and clothing.Because she couldn't bear it anymore.

It's just that year after year, ten years later, Jia Lingke's father did not come back.The desperate and hard-working mother may be exhausted physically and mentally, and her health is getting worse and worse. In Jia Lingke's year, she died of illness.At that time, Jia Ling happened to be in her third year of high school, and she was hit hard, but after all, she had the foundation, and she was admitted to the university and medical school smoothly.The problem is that she has no money to go to college at all, and all the relatives around her are poor and unwilling to support her.She knew that if she gave up the chance to go to college, she would not be able to get ahead, and she would never escape the problem of food and clothing.She naively thought that she could earn a lot of money by working part-time, but she broke both legs, and her salary was too low to pay her tuition.

She heard that working in a karaoke bar would bring a lot of money, so she went.She looks good and has a good figure.At the beginning, she worked as a waiter, carrying dishes and standing guard every day, and she was as tired as a dog.Once she went to the private room to test the karaoke for the guests, and saw the guests inserting money into the lady, and there were several red notes at one time.At that time, her eyes were straight.Afterwards, she went to ask the lady, why did the guest give her so much money?The lady told her that it would be ready for the guests to touch.So, she also became a lady.Singing with guests can earn hundreds of dollars a day.Although she didn't understand why she didn't make as much money as that young lady, and she was also as beautiful?It wasn't until one day that a client wanted her to appear on stage, and the price was a few red bills, that she realized that it was not easy to earn money.She flatly refused, but she was unlucky, the guest was not a vegetarian and raped her.She desperately called for help, struggled hard, and finally no one entered the box to stop her, so she was ruined.Afterwards, she lay on the sofa like a dead body. The cleaning lady who came in looked at her indifferently, cleaned as usual as if she didn't see her, and then left.Only the lady walked in silently, put a coat on her, and she said: "The boss will not offend customers because of us, it is not dignified to do our job."

Jia Lingke wept bitterly, clutching the money that the one dropped, tighter and tighter.

In September, Jia Lingke paid her tuition with the money she earned from her summer job, and started her work-study career.She used to be quite a lively girl, but when she arrived at university, her classmates probably had the impression of her as an "ice beauty".She has never been in a relationship. She went to the hospital for an internship in her senior year and met Song Zimo.

That year, Song Zimo was 14 years old and she was 22 years old, with a difference of eight years between the two.In her eyes, Song Zimo is still a child.His mother has mild uremia, and she came to the hospital every time she had an attack. A 14-year-old child is not strong enough, but every time he carries his mother to the hospital, registers, queues, sees a doctor, and is hospitalized.

When she noticed him, it was in the canteen of the hospital.He will make two meals and one meat dish.He has a clean two-layer lunch box with rice on the bottom and vegetables on the top.Every time he asked the master to order more vegetable soup for him, he would mix the excess vegetable soup with the rice and eat it as soon as possible, and then carefully put the rice in the lunch box. In the lunch box on the first floor, cover it and give it to his mother to eat.

At that time, Jia Ling could have an impression of Song Zimo - a filial child.

After get off work, she is used to buying vegetables and cooking by herself.She met the filial child in her impression again in the vegetable market.He was slaughtering fish, squatting silently in a corner of the fish stall, his knife sharp, as if isolated from the noisy vegetable market.At first she thought it was his father who was selling fish at the fish stand.Until one day, because she got off work too late, the time to go to the vegetable market was coming to an end, and many stall owners were cleaning up their stalls.She saw the fish stall owner handing him tens of dollars, and said with a smile, "Business is good today, and the more you work, the more you get."

"Thank you boss." He stuffed the money into his pocket, picked up the schoolbag next to him and left.

Jia Lingke looked at his back, as if she saw herself...

Maybe it was at this time that she began to pay attention to this boy. He was young, unsmiling, but living hard.Now that he is growing tall, every time Jia Ling sees him eating with vegetable soup, Jia Ling feels a little distressed.Finally one day, she couldn't control herself and ordered a lot of dishes and sat beside him who was raving about eating. She said, "I've been paying attention to you for a long time. When you grow up, why do you only eat these?"

He couldn't help but refuse, Jia Lingke dumped a bunch of vegetables on his plate.He stared blankly at the enthusiastic her, frowned his pretty eyebrows, and didn't say a word.

Jia Ling knew that what a stranger like her would do would make him hate him, but she couldn't control it.She knows the sadness of such a life, she knows the hardship of such a life.

He looked at the dishes on the plate and said in a mosquito-like voice, "Thank you."

Jia Ling was taken aback for a moment, then laughed.

In the future, Jia Ling would always order a lot of dishes. He was embarrassed at first, but later he accepted it generously.Seeing the situation, Jia Ling became more and more "crazy" to buy milk and calcium tablets for him, and gave him the salary of the internship, except for the necessities of life, and the extra money.

Song Zimo also lived up to Jia Lingke's investment. After one year, the little boy who was originally thin and thin suddenly jumped to nearly 1.7 meters. He was only 15 years old at that time.

Jia Lingke also got to know him well within this year, and successfully marched to his mother's place. His mother knew her "deeds" and was very grateful.Jia Ling knew that what she did was so insignificant, but she also understood why his mother and Song Zimo valued her so much. The kindness of lending a helping hand in adversity will be unforgettable.At that time, if someone was willing to help her, she would not choose to be a young lady, let alone be... This is Jia Lingke's scar, and it will never heal.

After Jia Lingke graduated, she stayed in the hospital where she practiced and continued to work, learning from the attending doctor of Song Zimo's mother.Maybe this is fate, her life is completely immersed in Song Zimo's world.She knew that Song Zimo's parents were divorced. Because her mother used to be a full-time wife and left her husband, her life was relatively difficult.Dad had a new love and started a new family. The stepmother didn't want to see him. Later, the stepmother had her own child, so he felt that he was extra redundant.His mother took pity on him, so she took him to her side, and the mother and son depended on each other for life.

In fact, Jia Ling is not a person who is full of love. She may be the same person who has fallen in the end of the world. The feeling of why she had known each other before meeting each other made her care more about the mother and son.Her salary was not high, and at first she just bought some nutritious things to support Song Zimo's health. Later, she bought clothes and study books for Song Zimo, and even secretly helped him pay his tuition.

She never expected anything in return.Just knowing that they needed help, and she was there to help.

Song Zimo's household registration was in city A, so he couldn't take the exam in city H. In the third year of junior high school, he returned to city A and lived in his father's house.At that time, not everyone had a phone, and the two of them had less contact. They only occasionally learned about his situation from Song's mother.

After the high school entrance examination, he still didn't choose to stay in City A, but went to study in a private school in City H.The life of him and Song's mother is no longer difficult. The father who found out his conscience gave them a lot of living expenses every month. Not only can they eat and dress well, but they can also have enough money to treat Song's mother.

She seems to be able to exit smoothly.

But she didn't expect that the boy whom she hadn't seen for a year suddenly jumped to 1.8 meters tall. He grew up, and something seemed to be enlightened.

He said, "Sister Lingke, I will marry you when I grow up."

Apart from being surprised, she wanted to laugh more at his cuteness and his innocence.Teenage boy, do you know what marriage is?She didn't want to make him sad, so she just asked back: "Why did you marry me?"

"You are kind to me, and there is nothing in return, just promise with your body."

She laughed, leaning forward and backward: "Do you like me?"

"like."

"Your liking is not called love, fool."

At that time, Song Zimo just looked at her with a pair of extremely ignorant eyes, and said, "I just like you, and I want to promise you with my body."

She was confused by his firmness, but she knew in her heart that it was impossible for her and Song Zimo.She is eight years older than him, she has had a painful experience, and more importantly, she is very clear that Song Zimo's liking is not love, but dependence?Is it gratitude?Or the simplest way to repay your kindness.

She didn't take his liking seriously, no matter how many times he confessed, she refused.Time and time again, but each time she became less firm... She knew something was wrong.Mother Song actually knew about this a long time ago. She didn't say it on the surface, but she would always tell her insincerely that Song Zimo was just young and mistook gratitude for emotion.Tell her not to be serious.

In Song Zimo's freshman year, her father, whom she hadn't seen for a long time, suddenly appeared in front of her.He is not considered rich but has certain assets. He is a small boss of Chinese descent, and he has a wife and children by his side.Perhaps at that moment, she was completely disappointed in the so-called love.The man her mother had hoped to bring them out of poverty had long since found a new love.He came back this time because the child born to his wife in the United States is going to study.Because she didn't divorce her mother, she didn't marry the wife over there, and the child didn't have a registered permanent residence, so she couldn't study.When he came back, he was divorced. Unexpectedly, his wife here had died a long time ago.

I don't know if it's because of guilt or other reasons, but her father told her to go to the United States to develop, and she can easily obtain a US green card and become a US citizen.If she had the backbone, she would definitely refuse angrily.It is a pity that many outlooks on life and values ​​have been obliterated in repeated disappointments and despairs.She chose to go to America.Because she knows the richest professions in the United States, one is a doctor and the other is a lawyer.In China, she will always be ordinary and only live between food and clothing and a well-off life.

She just wanted to make herself better, that's all.

When saying goodbye, Song Zimo pursed his lips without saying a word.When she was about to enter the security checkpoint, Song Zimo asked her: "What is liking?"

In fact, she didn't know, she just said out of feeling: "I just don't want to separate."

Just like she is now, a woman in her late thirties who doesn't want to be separated from the handsome boy she has watched grow up in front of her.Forced by life, there is no choice.

"So, you don't like me." These were the last words Song Zimo heard before she left.

Life in the United States is stressful and boring.The pace of life is fast, go to work, eat, sleep.Later, I went clubbing with my colleagues and had one-night stands, not to mention corruption, but just to adjust my life.Occasionally received calls from Song Zimo, most of which mentioned his mother's physical condition.

The relationship is like the relationship between the patient's family and the doctor.This relationship made her irritable.

Until one day, Song Zimo told her that he had a girlfriend named Li Xintong, but he didn't like it.Because there is no idea of ​​not wanting to separate.

He only mentioned this girl in front of her once, and he didn't mention it again after that. Over time, she felt that it was time for them to break up.

Song's mother's illness is getting worse and worse, and she has reached the point of needing a kidney transplant.Every time Song Zimo talked with her on the phone, his voice was always low and low, with little strength.She is also worried that she is far away in the United States and doesn't know her roots.So he suggested that he send Mama Song to the United States for treatment. The medical expenses are cheaper, and the medical system in the United States is better than that in China.But the premise is that you must be a U.S. citizen.Immigration is unrealistic for Song Zimo, and the cost of immigration alone is beyond compare.

So she suggested that if you marry a U.S. citizen, you can become a U.S. citizen unconditionally.

Where did Song Zimo know American citizens?Except Jia Lingke.

Jia Lingke doubted herself afterwards, was it out of kindness or selfishness?After much deliberation, let's mix it up.

Song Zimo was very filial, and he went to the doctor urgently for some illnesses, so he readily agreed.

For this reason, she returned to China, where she also met Li Xintong who was Song Zimo's girlfriend.

Li Xintong seemed to know her and was full of hostility towards her.She was very obvious, without the slightest affectation.Jia Ling admired this. Isn't she afraid that Song Zimo will think she is too inappropriate?After all, at a young age, Jia Ling can make a new step for Li Xintong in this way.

Li Xintong was really nervous about Song Zimo, and was full of possessiveness towards Song Zimo.From another perspective, this kind of perverted possessiveness is because she is very unconfident and insecure towards Song Zimo. In other words, she knows very well that Song Zimo doesn't like her enough.

Jia Lingke told Song Zimo her opinion, Song Zimo was just stunned, blushing: "She is an idiot, don't pay attention to her."

This was the first time she had seen him "going to talk", his shyness and sweetness were fully displayed on his face.The boy who once said he likes her may already know what it means to like her.Liking is not a physical promise, but a sweet rejection of each other's shortcomings.

Some small envy, a little distressed jealousy.

Back in the United States, they applied for a marriage certificate, and Mother Song entered the hospital smoothly, filled out an organ application form, and waited for a miracle to happen.These things have been busy for nearly two months.There was still something to do, but Song Zimo said that he wanted to go back to China.She drove him to the airport.There was a heavy snowfall before, and the road was too slippery. In order to hurry, he drove over the speed limit and was punished. The steering wheel of the car didn't work, and the car overturned. To protect her, Song Zimo hugged her tightly and wrapped her in his wide bosom.

In the end, she only suffered skin trauma, while Song Zimo was seriously injured. The severe concussion made him fall into a coma for three days and three nights. The first thing he did when he woke up was to ask what time it was.When he learned that he missed the plane, he covered his face and cried. It was the first time she saw Song Zimo cry. It was the first time that he, who was strong and forbearing, took off his hard shell and cried like a child.

He told her that he not only understood what liking was, but also what love was.Like is not wanting to be separated, love is not forgetting after separation.

He loves Li Xintong.

(End of this chapter)