Can't help feeling for you: can't live without you

Chapter 37 Color Spinning Top (3)
He hesitated for a moment before answering her, "It's about Cheng Huimei, a medical report, and a letter she wrote to me."

Dong Zhiwei was taken aback, she was no stranger to the name Cheng Huimei, she was Cheng Fang's former mistress, Yuan Jingrui's ex-wife, her marriage to him only lasted three days, and she died in an accident in Cheng Fang's unfinished project in the building.

That was one of the sources of her fear of the man in front of her. She once suspected that he had something to do with Cheng Huimei's death, just like countless others.

But that was before she knew him.

"Do I need to see it?" She held her breath, as if she was approaching something she shouldn't be approaching.

"Actually, it's nothing." He had already touched the lighter and cigarette, but he didn't intend to light it. He just rubbed the lighter between his fingers, "I just want you to know why we got married at that time, she...was sick."

Dong Zhiwei cautiously asked, "Are you saying that she has... a terminal illness?"

Yuan Jingrui frowned, as if he was considering whether to speak or not, but he still answered her, simply, "Yes, she has a disease that cannot be cured, and it is not convenient to disclose it. What happened before and after needs help." Take care, and we'll get married."

He thought about it, and added, "She's quite pitiful, and I don't regret it."

She heard him talk about the marriage that brought so much wind and rain and made him the object of suspicion by countless people, in a very ordinary tone, without any superfluous description, and finally said that he had no regrets, and she suddenly He was completely relieved, no matter what he wanted to express.

A man who does not escape the past will have a better future, and she loves such a man.

"I see. Actually, I don't need to look at it." She smiled.

Dong Zhiwei's smile made him feel relieved. The contents of the envelope were prepared when he flew to Hong Kong last time. Inside were two medical reports, one about Cheng Huimei and the other about his own health. According to the report, Cheng Huimei received treatment in Hong Kong before her death. The incubation period of AIDS can be long or short. Or, compared with suffering, her accidental death might be a relief.

After her death, he kept all the materials about her illness secretly, just in case, and he didn't think of letting anyone know, but Dong Zhiwei's resolute rejection of him last time made him desperately ask her The urge to explain, whether she rejected Cheng Huimei because of Cheng Huimei's confusing death or not, he wants her to know that he will not and has no need to murder a woman who is about to die.

But this momentary impulse was restrained by him soon after. If she doesn't love him, what's the point of her knowing his past?

But on the way she accompanied him, he always carried this envelope, and asked himself almost every night if he wanted to explain it to her.

He didn't want her to reject him because of that, but he wanted her to believe him because she knew him, even without an explanation, which was a contradiction.

But yesterday evening, when he was waiting for her to appear in his room, the door rang, and what he saw was Chen Wenwen dressed up, telling him that she still loved him and wanted to return to him.

Does he not like Chen Wenwen?No, he used to like her, this beautiful woman was the deepest scar in his youth.He still remembered that he was annoyed because of her leaving, and tried hard to maintain a superficial indifference, but in the middle of the night, he fantasized about begging her to come back over and over again.Even if he was expelled from school because of her and had to leave Shanghai to go far away, he never regretted it.

He did what a man can and should do, and if time went back, he would still make the same choice.

But he doesn't love her.

He had seen too many women in the later days, and later he knew that as a man, he would always have some strange feelings in the face of a beautiful opposite sex. It was an instinctive reaction to beautiful things, as long as they Be cute, loveable, and everything will happen naturally.

But this is not love.

Love has never been logical, love makes him nervous, makes him toss and turn, what he wants, love is that he wants to see someone every second, wants to possess her every second, he is worried about gains and losses, weak in the face of her rejection, he refuses to be defeated by her , but cannot escape, it is a terrible torment, he has only tasted this kind of feeling on one person in his life, and that is Dong Zhiwei.

He met Chen Wenwen again, after so many years, unexpectedly, but not pleasantly.He took her back to the company and politely invited her to attend the ceremony as his female companion, the real purpose was just to see Dong Zhiwei's reaction.

He knew that it was naive and ridiculous for him to do this, but when he was with Chen Wenwen, he always used a way of treating old friends. He thought she was a smart person, and she would not have such a big misunderstanding.

"Wenwen, we are just friends now. I'm glad to see you here, but you know that the past is over." He answered her gently, and glanced at the time without any trace.

She shook her head, "No, Jingrui, I know we can start over again, I thought I would never see you again in this life, but you see, fate has allowed us to be together on the plane after so many years. When I met each other, you have done so much for me and sacrificed so much, I have always kept it in my heart, and I have never forgotten you."

The most helpless thing in this world is the situation in front of him. He doesn't want to see her sad expression, but he has to tell her.

Yuan Jingrui frowned, and pressed his hand on his heart while speaking, "But I already have someone else."

"Are you talking about Dong Zhiwei? I have also seen that you are very kind to her, very different, but she said that she has nothing to do with you. She knows that I am looking for you, and she also knows that I want to tell you What."

"She knew you came to see me? Did she ask you to come?" He asked back, the sudden anger made his voice sink.

How ridiculous, the woman he pursued wholeheartedly, but watched another woman come to confess his love to him, and even encouraged her, it had nothing to do with him.

Could she find a more ruthless way to reject him?She didn't want him, so she pushed him to another woman!
What is an insult? This is a complete insult. If he is going crazy, he will go crazy because of that cold-blooded woman.

"Jingrui? What's wrong with you?" Chen Wenwen was terrified by the haze that suddenly appeared on the man's face in front of her, and she took a step back unconsciously.

When he saw the expression on her face, he didn't even need to look in the mirror to know that his whole face was black, but the feeling of anger was uncontrollable at all. He closed his eyes and answered her with a calm voice as much as possible, but he still bit her. teething.

"Wenwen, no matter what Dong Zhiwei told you, I've already finished what I want to say. I think you can understand, right?"

Chen Wenwen was frightened. Yuan Jingrui was no longer the big boy in her memory who always smiled, occasionally lost his temper and would soon clear up. He is now an adult man who has nothing in common with the past. The time is fine, but once you put on a straight face, it will bring you an unparalleled sense of oppression.

And this oppressive feeling made it impossible for her not to react quickly to his words, she nodded, and couldn't say another word.

"Well, the dinner party is about to begin. If you still want to join, I'm still welcome. Can I be alone now?"

She nodded again, and left his room as fast as she could.

And Yuan Jingrui stood alone in the empty room, took a deep breath, and after ten seconds, went straight to Dong Zhiwei's room with the envelope.

"I won't read it, I'll bring it back to you later."

There was a soft light in his eyes, and he said, "And..."

She pursed her lips and finished the sentence for him, "Don't worry, I won't let others see it, let alone tell anyone. This is our secret. If you need it, I will forget it now."

Yuan Jingrui nodded, who said that smart women are not loved by men?He really loved her.

After Dong Zhiwei said these words, he checked his whole body for the last time, pulled the corners of his clothes, and adjusted his neckline.

When she made these movements, she was meticulous and careful, with a serious expression, her slightly thin lips were slightly pursed, and as he looked at her, his body began to heat up again.

He was sure that Dong Zhiwei himself never knew that she possessed a special, incomparable sexiness, which was hidden in a very hidden place, like a deep still water, most of the people would not be able to notice it, but once caught in it, it would be unbelievable. Unable to extricate himself, just like him now.

Then he suddenly thought of Wen Bailiang again, no, he didn't mind the past between her and him, who didn't have the past, he just felt sorry for that man, it was really sad, what a beautiful thing he lost.

"You'd better take a look. In addition to her medical report, there is also a copy of mine."

"Your?" Dong Zhiwei was about to leave when he heard that.

He was lighting a cigarette, and raised his eyebrows to look at her again, smiling, "Prove that my body is completely healthy, understand?"

She blushed again when he saw her, fearing that if she stayed any longer, something would happen that made her unable to resist, so she immediately ran away.

Dong Zhiwei was a little apprehensive all the way back to her room, but she was still happy, a feeling of joyful weightlessness filled her whole body.

She accepted the man she had always resisted, and he made her feel unparalleled happiness and joy. She couldn't restrain the smile on her lips even when she was worried that she would be seen leaving his room early in the morning. Love is beautiful Yes, everything she sees is warm and bright, making her want to hum a sweet song.

Dong Zhiwei's good mood lasted until she returned to her room and found the yellow envelope.

She found the envelope on the ground next to the tea cabinet by the door. She vaguely remembered that Yuan Jingrui left it on the tea cabinet when she entered the door yesterday evening. It was a strange feeling, thinking about it now, probably because he dropped the envelope so hard that it fell from the cabinet to the ground.

When opening the envelope, Dong Zhiwei hesitated for a moment. Although Yuan Jingrui had already explained it clearly to her, she also felt that she could fully understand what he meant, but hearing about it was one thing, and seeing it with her own eyes was another. , when she finally spread out the medical report in front of her, every difficult word on it made her tremble with fear.

Dong Zhiwei only read the medical report hastily and put it back. Inside the envelope was a neatly bound health report with Yuan Jingrui's name on the cover. When Dong Zhiwei opened it, he thought of what Yuan Jingrui said to her. The expression of "I'm healthy", although I still feel uncomfortable with what I saw just now, I couldn't help smiling.
This morning was the longest and shortest morning in Dong Zhiwei's life. There were too many joys and surprises, too many surprises and unforgettable moments. Two hours later, Yuan Jingrui pressed the button on the trading floor of the Hong Kong Stock Exchange. She pressed the button representing Cheng Fang's listing, and in front of him were the gazes of countless people. Standing behind him, she heard the cheers of the audience, as well as the strong white light of flashing lights one after another.

She saw his side face, with a smile, but not the ecstatic expression like the other members of Chengfang standing around him.

She knew that Yuan Jingrui was enjoying this moment, but a person would not express too much emotion about the result he was sure of. He knew that this day would come, but it came today.

Thinking of this, Dong Zhiwei was a little distracted, and forgot to move his gaze, but Yuan Jingrui suddenly turned around and smiled at her.
He must have noticed her staring at him, and he was very happy, with an obvious intimacy in his smile, as if to say, "Look, I caught you."

Dong Zhiwei was caught off guard. Although not many people noticed this moment, her cheeks were still hot.

Of course she was also happy, but she felt that she would never be able to express her feelings as freely as Yuan Jingrui did, and be so righteous to the point of being justified—even if she loved him.

(End of this chapter)