Chapter 1 1984, Just Right
"Hongan, get up and eat!"

"Have a meal?"

Fang Hongan just thought it was ridiculous.

I am a dying person lying in bed, relying on fluid injections to survive, and you want me to eat?
But somehow.

The voice seemed... extremely real.

And it was vaguely familiar.

Are you hallucinating?

Fang Hongan struggled to open his eyes.

It was a dim room with a gray-blue mosquito net and a large old-style wardrobe with floral appliques. Next to the wardrobe was a rough, yellowish adobe wall. Beyond the wall was a low door. Going through the door, on the wall opposite the door hung a bamboo hat made of rice dumpling leaves and a brown silk raincoat.

Fang Hongan stared wide-eyed as if he had seen a ghost.

Isn’t this the mud house in my hometown in the 1980s?

This large wardrobe with floral patterns was made by a carpenter from the village when he got married.

Yes, the double happiness words written on red paper on the wardrobe are still new!

Hallucination?

Do not!
Not an illusion!

But...I was reborn!
Feeling the real pain from pinching my thigh.

Fang Hongan looked at everything in front of him greedily.

I don't know when, tears of excitement and joy rolled down my eyes.

"Da da da!"

Accompanied by the sound of footsteps.

A thin figure came into Fang Hongan's sight.

Fang Hongan trembled suddenly.

Looking at the figure that had haunted his soul for forty years, he stretched out his hand tremblingly, and after moving his lips vigorously for a long time, he finally uttered a few words with difficulty: "Wen...Wen...Xiu!"

As the voice fell, the defenses of the eye sockets collapsed completely.

……

"Hongan! What...what happened!"

Lan Wenxiu looked at her husband in astonishment.

I never expected that after waking up from a nap, my husband would become so excited when he saw me for the first time.

"Isn't it because he caught a cold or has a fever?"

Lan Wenxiu walked forward, placed the back of her hand on Fang Hongan's forehead to feel it, then placed it back on her own forehead to compare, and a trace of worry suddenly appeared on her thin and pale face: "It's a bit hot!"

Lan Wenxiu turned around and prepared to pour water, but Fang Hongan's hand suddenly stretched out and forcefully pulled him back.

"Hongan, I'll help you pour it..."

Before she could finish, Fang Hongan turned over and held her in his arms.

"Wen...Xiu!"

"Wenxiu!"

"I don't have a fever!"

"I'm fine! Very fine! Better than ever!"

"Ha ha!"

Fang Hongan's body was trembling. He held Lan Wenxiu tightly with his strong arms and muttered to himself.

Feeling Fang Hongan's straightforward and strong affection, Lan Wenxiu was a little shy at first, but gradually she got used to it with a blushing face.

After a while.

Seeing that Fang Hongan had no intention of letting go, Lan Wenxiu couldn't help herself and coughed twice: "Okay! Stop imagining! Go wash your face and then eat! The rice jar at home is almost empty, I'm going to go back to my mother's house to borrow some!"

She just thought Fang Hongan was having a nightmare. After comforting him softly, she twisted her body and got out of Fang Hongan's arms.

"Go back to my mother's house!" "Borrow food!"

Fang Hongan's mind exploded.

The nightmare memories that had been buried for forty years came flooding back like a tide.

I remember it, I remember everything.

1984 5 Month 11 Day.

This was a day that he would remember forever, made him feel remorseful and guilty for forty years, and completely changed the trajectory of his life.

Fang Hongan was born in a small village in the Xiaonan Mountain area. The people were poor and the land was scarce. He had a bad life. His parents died one after another before he could remember. Fang Hongan was raised by his grandparents and set up his own household at the age of sixteen.

In that era, children from rural areas got married early, but because of poverty, Fang Hongan didn't even have anyone to propose marriage to.

It was not until I was 20 years old, when I was accompanying someone on a blind date, that I met Lan Wenxiu by chance, who was also accompanying someone on a blind date.

Fang Hongan fell in love with Lan Wenxiu at first sight and was also attracted by her beauty. Relying on his handsome appearance and shameless skills, he successfully "made friends" with her in private.

When it came to discussing marriage, Lan Wenxiu's family was absolutely against it after learning about Fang Hongan's family situation.

But the tyrannical father-in-law was ultimately unable to defeat the seemingly weak Lan Wenxiu.

After getting married in 1983, the couple was full of confidence in building their happy little home, but they did not expect that God would be evil and that the two mu of paddy fields that could have yielded 1000 kilograms of millet only yielded less than 600 kilograms of millet.

After deducting the public grain that had been handed in, the family was out of food by April of the following year when the grain seeds were replaced.

Fang Hongan borrowed money from everywhere, but he only managed to last until May, so Lan Wenxiu thought of going back to her parents' home to borrow food.

On May 1984, 5, Lan Wenxiu went back to her mother's home in Lanxi Village to borrow grain. On the way, she accidentally slipped and fell into a deserted pond, and eventually died in the pond along with her four-month-old fetus in her belly.

As a result, Fang Hongan lived in endless regret and pain for the next forty years. He wasted his life in poverty and died just after he turned sixty. He lay in the intensive care unit waiting to die!

……

……

The thoughts were pulled back.

Seeing that Lan Wenxiu had packed up and was ready to go out.

Fang Hongan was shocked.

He rushed to the main hall door and stopped his wife: "Wen... Wenxiu! No... you can't go!"

Seeing Lan Wenxiu looking over with a frown on her face, Fang Hongan knew that he must have misunderstood what he meant, and he quickly explained: "What I meant is that I have already found a way to exchange for food, so there is no need to borrow it!"

"Huh?" Lan Wenxiu looked at Fang Hongan in surprise.

It's not that she didn't trust the husband in front of her, but she was very clear about the current situation of this family. In the past, Fang Hongan had racked his brains and tried all kinds of methods to get food, but he really had no other choice, so she thought of going back to her parents' home to borrow food.

But now Fang Hongan suddenly said that there was a way.

Moreover, he said “exchange” instead of “borrow”!
Lan Wenxiu found it a little unbelievable.

Looking at the twinkling little stars in Lan Wenxiu's eyes, Fang Hongan couldn't help but smile slightly.

During these forty years of guilt and regret, in addition to endless self-blame, he had also seriously fantasized countless times about how he would prevent the tragedy that happened if God gave him a chance to start over.

From the perspective of future generations, it is not difficult to summarize some fast and feasible solutions.

Now that he has this opportunity, Fang Hongan only needs to choose one.

After smiling for a moment, Fang Hongan had made a decision. He leaned over and whispered a few words into Lan Wenxiu's ear.

"Prepare these things?"

Lan Wenxiu looked dumb and said, "Hongan, what are you going to do?"

"secret!"

Fang Hongan couldn't help but stretched out his hand and scratched her upturned nose: "Anyway, my dear wife, just wait for me at home."

As he finished speaking, he took advantage of Lan Wenxiu's cheeks turning pink and kissed her forehead.

"Yes! I...I'll go prepare it for you!"

Lan Wenxiu walked into the inner room with a shy look on her cheeks like a young girl...

(End of this chapter)