shock!I became the full-level savior of the infinite game

Chapter 397 Distant Town (31)

Some people say that childhood is the happiest moment in a person's life.

At that time, we were free and carefree. We didn't have to worry about the illusory future, and we didn't need to run around for our livelihood every moment.

Someone also said... "When a person reaches a certain age, he has to be that roof... There is no way to find another place to hide from the rain."

Every time I see this sentence... I feel an indescribable sense of suffocation.

……

I never felt that I was such a responsible person.

Just do my own job, what else has anything to do with me... With such "deviant" thoughts, I was naturally labeled as "lazy".

"You can't go on like this, your time is running out."

"I've never seen your shadow when working overtime! Look at how others do it, and then look at you!"

"You can't even do this little thing well, what a waste!"

"..."

"I'm not criticizing you, it's just that you... well, it really chills me."

...Really, is it my fault?
I don't understand.

If you can't figure it out, you naturally want to talk to the people around you.

However, the parents who have a gap with themselves in their 20s can't understand the so-called "mental pressure", and can only say "everyone has come here like this" and "the reason why you are dissatisfied with you must be because you haven't worked hard enough".

Unable to find comfort in my parents, I can only turn to colleagues who have the same experience as myself.

But did not expect ...

The colleague who was supposed to stand on the united front with him turned out to be a secret "eyeliner".

...that's social.

This is society.

This is the so-called "adult world".

Not recognized, not understood... Even though I have tried my best, I can't even realize such a simple wish as "live well".

I want to change myself in order not to be excluded or targeted, but I find that no matter how hard I try, the status quo will not change.

It's still the endless pressure...the abuse anytime, anywhere.

That's when I realized... I hadn't done anything wrong.

It's just... in the eyes of those who hate you, your existence is a "mistake"... nothing more.

……

The expectations of parents, the pressure of life, and the judgment of others.

Pain caused by difficulty living up to parental expectations.Suffocation caused by the difficulty in relieving the pressure of life.Despair born of the difficulty of ignoring the eyes of others...

Everything seems to be invisible, but ubiquitous, countless lines.

Bind me tightly in place...and couldn't move.

……

I really want to escape.

No matter the method... no matter where it goes.

I really want to escape.

I really want to...escape from this world.

……

"Others don't need any reason for you. This is not a school anymore. You have to be careful about everything. No matter how dissatisfied you are, you have to hold it in your heart... I know it's hard, but I can't bear it. I can bear it all over again. Isn't this life? ?"

A girl with a gentle face and a sweet voice said this to me.

"Just make it through this period of time." She smiled, "After leaving here, everything will be better."

"After all, nothing is more important than life."

Her name is Mu Ziqi, and she is a friend I met in college.

Although we have different personalities, we have an amazing fit in how we treat people.

We made an appointment to live together in the future... to live the life we ​​want to live together.

If there were friends who supported me unconditionally... the darkness before dawn would not seem so unbearable.

Just like what Qiqi said, as long as you survive this period of time, it will be fine.

After making it through... what awaits me, what awaits us, is what we yearn for, the best life.

……

I still remember that day, it was Saturday night.

Qiqi didn't come back very late.

I went to her office to look for her, but the desk by the window was empty.

Facing my inquiry, the office with few people was silent for a long time.

Finally, a timid voice told me that Mu Ziqi was in the office next door and seemed to be being lectured.

When I hurried over... I only heard the end of the man's rage and the girl's low voice.

The girl who walked out of the office still had tears on her face, and there was an emotion in her eyes that I was all too familiar with... but I had never seen in her eyes.

Rao is so, the moment he saw me.

She still showed the same sweet smile as usual.

After that night... I regret it every day.

If only I could be more sensitive.

If only I could care about her a little more.

in case……

in case……

...not so many ifs.

There is only cruel reality in this world.

……

"Have you heard that a girl seems to have committed suicide?"

"Really? It's scary..."

"This is the third incident this year, right? Sigh... What a crime."

……

No one pays attention.

Nobody cares.

What was exchanged for a living human life... is just a few words of discussion.

I can not be reconciled.

I don't even want to believe it.

My friend... she is so gentle, so optimistic, no matter what difficulties she encounters, she can face them with a smile.

She is so strong... She clearly said, "Nothing is more important than life".

but.

No matter how much I don't believe it, no matter how unwilling I am... so what?

Her parents have accepted monetary compensation and promised not to pursue the matter any further.

She and I are just ordinary friends, not related by blood or legally.

I can't do anything... I can only scream on the Internet with meager strength.

—they are murderers!
They are murderers! !

They are murderers! ! !
However, even the slightest wave could not be stirred up.

……

I really want to escape.

It doesn't matter what method you use...it doesn't matter where you go.

I really want to escape.

I really want to...escape from this world.

……

In a daze, I don't know how long it has passed.

In my ear, a voice suddenly sounded.

It was a male voice that sounded very young, with a hint of sarcasm and a little bit of banter.

"I can bestow upon you power comparable to that of a creator. As long as you can build a qualified 'utopia' within the specified time, I will promise to fulfill one of your wishes."

For me, that is simply the best condition in the world.

……

"I want to create a wonderful utopia."

"A utopia that can abandon the past, forget the future, and allow her and me to live a happy life."

"This is, my wish."

(End of this chapter)