Love the good night from now on

Pull a light from the rain cloud.

The light shone on the cloud-shrouded hilltops.

The clouds cleared, revealing the faint mountain peaks.

I am like the small mountain among the overlapping peaks.

As soon as I saw the light, it was dark.

Before Yi Nan woke up, I left quietly.

Everything that happened yesterday came to an abrupt end the moment I saw my phone this morning.

"I bought a sea-view villa for my parents in Sanya. Last time they said they wanted to go there for the winter, my father's old cold legs would be more comfortable."

"Duoduo will be able to attend kindergarten in September. I have already selected the best kindergarten for him. Don't worry."

"The wedding dress you asked for last time, I found a way to buy it for you. The wedding scene is based on what you like. It's all white lisianthus."

"I changed Duoduo's children's bed to a bigger one. You like to sleep with him. Now the bed is too small. I'm afraid you will crush his arms."

"Oh, by the way, you are afraid of the dark, I will keep the light in the living room until you come back."

The streets of the city wake up quickly.

The sky light that gradually covered the earth replaced the night street lights.

There are people pushing carts at intersections selling breakfast.

The crowds who came and went began to live hard for new hope.

And I, standing at the intersection, watched the red light turn on and off, turn off and turn on again.

But I was just like a pool of stagnant water, hopeless.

Obviously I was that close to him.

I've been thinking these days if Duoduo is really Yi Nan's child.

Then if it happens that Yi Nan is willing to accept him.

Then I can be with him logically.

Be with my expectations and ideals for so many years.

Last night seemed to confirm that Yi Nan was willing to accept me and Duoduo.

Even he has something to like about me.

All the expectations and ideals of these years are about to come true.

But I ignored it. I accidentally became the expectation and ideal of others.

I know the pain of being alone.

Chengguang shouldn't have to bear that.

but I
What should I do.
It was I who broke the balance.

it's me again!
I clenched my fist angrily, letting my nails dig into the flesh of my palm.

I started to re-examine myself.

I started wondering if I was being too selfish.
The red light next to the zebra crossing changed to green again.

The crowds around me increased again.

They passed me by in a hurry, and occasionally one or two ran into my shoulder with their breakfast bites. They would not apologize when they turned their heads, but impatiently resisted: "What are you doing standing in the middle of the road!"

Yes, standing at the crossroads, but I don't know where to go.

Until the crowd was forced back by the red light, the traffic flow began to slowly advance.

I suddenly saw Yi Nan who was across the street from me, and he was looking at me sadly.

He moved his lips, and I couldn't make out what he was saying.

It was only later that I realized that it was the first sentence "I love you" that Yi Nan said to me.

The traffic flow occupied the entire street like a continuous movie scene.

I suddenly made a decision.

Even decisions that hurt many people.

So I pulled up and prepared to cross the road.

I should go back to Yi Nan's arms.

That is the embrace I have been waiting for for many years.

I can't just give up like this.

But before I stepped out of the curb, I was pulled vigorously by someone.

I turned back in horror, only to see Chengguang standing behind me with a haggard face.

His eyes were astringent, but there was a forced smile on the corner of his lips.

"I finally found you," he said.

Just like Yi Nan's opening remarks when we met again.

"I thought you wouldn't come back."

Chengguang's voice was soft, as if a louder voice would trigger an irresistible tsunami or earthquake.

His hands clasped my arm tightly.

There was a dark red in the eyes.

The originally rippling pupils seemed to be filled with the light of the waning moon.

He just stood behind me like that, almost begging: "Don't leave me, okay?"

At this time, the green light turned on again, and the crowd passed by me and Chengguang again and again.

We were crowded together.

Chengguang took the opportunity to pull me into his arms, and the voice whispered from the top of his head: "Don't leave me, Sui Sui."

I swear, I only hesitated for a moment.

I also know that I shouldn't hesitate.

Because when I turned my head again, Yi Nan across the road had disappeared.

He didn't wait for me.

He won't wait for me either.

My heart ached a lot, but when I looked up, I met the eyes like the waning moon.

After a while, I said, "I was last night"

"I don't want to know." Chengguang pulled me back into his arms, slightly closed his eyes: "Let's go home."

"Chengguang, me." I spoke again.

But he surrounded me nervously: "In the afternoon, let's go to Shanghai. Duoduo's third operation is ahead of schedule, don't you know?"

More important than Yi Nan is naturally my son.

So I asked him: "I don't know, it wasn't just a few days after the restoration was done."

The corners of his eyes finally regained their luster: "This morning, the doctor in charge called me and said that experts from Germany have come and can perform the last operation on Duoduo now."

I also became joyful: "Then our group will be able to go home soon?"

Chengguang nodded solemnly: "Well, go home."

Fate always plays misplaced jokes again and again.

Duoduo's operation was caught off guard and ahead of schedule.

This made me no longer think about Yi Nan.

Chengguang no longer asked me where I was, what I was doing last night, and who I was with.

He seemed to know that if he asked me I would confess.

I don't want to lie to him.

It's just that he doesn't want to hear it.

Chengguang didn't even give me a chance to think.

From the car to the plane to the hospital in Shanghai, he was discussing with me all the way about Duoduo's arrangements after returning to Nanhai.

He prefers family doctors.

Because the bone recovery is very slow, I am afraid that Duoduo will be too depressed if he has been hospitalized.

There are toys at home, an aunt he is familiar with, and me by the side, which is easier than being hospitalized.

However, I have been hesitant because of the high cost of family doctors and the need to lease medical equipment.

Until I arrived in Shanghai and met Tuanzi, Tuanzi made the decision for me.

Of course he wanted to stay at home.

No child likes being in the hospital.

And my parents, in order to continue to take care of the dumplings, also politely asked if there was any spare room for them to live in. If not, they would take the subway for an hour and a half every day to come and see the dumplings.

Chengguang naturally readily agreed, the house is big enough to live in.

So on the second day after the Tuanzi operation, we packed up our things and left Shanghai, and returned to Nanhai, Chengguang's home.