Lu Yao Zhi Han Yi

PTSD——Post-traumatic stress disorder (Post-traumatic stress disorder) refers to the sequelae of disordered mental state after a person encounters or resists severe stress.These experiences include threats to life, serious physical harm, and physical or psychological coercion.It is sometimes called post-traumatic stress reaction (post-traumatic stress reaction) to emphasize that this phenomenon is a reasonable result of experiencing trauma, rather than the patient's psychological state.

Many post-trauma survivors don't take long to return to their normal lives, but some are overwhelmed by the stress of being their normal selves, and even worse over time, and these individuals may develop PTSD. People with PTSD often experience symptoms such as nightmares and flashbacks, have trouble sleeping, and feel detached and alienated.These symptoms, if severe enough and persistent enough, can significantly impair an individual's daily life.

"Reproducible reaction" - the traumatic situation repeatedly and involuntarily emerges in the patient's thinking and memory, breaks into the consciousness and cannot be entangled, and often appears in dreams.Sometimes there will be "replay" seizures, as if they are in danger again, and there will be delusions, hallucinations, and dissociative disorders of consciousness.Sometimes the mental pain of "touching the scene to give birth to emotion" occurs.

On the contrary, "avoidance response" means that individual patients have psychogenic amnesia for traumatic situations, and the events experienced are excluded from memory and denied even after being reminded.

"If that's the case, then Yaoyao won't be in such pain." On the way to the hospital, Lu Han told everyone the general situation of Lu Yao's illness. "Yaoyao happens to be the first type, the 'recurrence reaction', and it has been for many years. Not only has he not forgotten it, but he often has nightmares when he thinks about it."

Yes, what can make Lu Yao feel emotional is singing in front of others.

That happened when she was very young, but she still remembers all the details of that day clearly.It is precisely because I can't forget that it is so painful.

That was when Lu Yao was three years old, and she was still living with her mother Bai Ci at that time.At that time, Bai Ci was not in good physical and mental condition, but he was still able to live a normal life.

Until one day, Bai Ci took Lu Yao to the auditorium in the community to watch the old man's performance, and then Xiao Lu Yao came on stage and sang a song after being coaxed by those old men and aunts.

Lu Yao sang a nursery rhyme, "Little Boy". Although his immature voice is still very young, the voice and tune are undoubtedly very good. All the elders and aunts applauded and cheered.

Lu Yao sang very well, but Bai Ci's face turned paler the more he listened, as if recalling something painful, his whole body trembled.

Lu Yao didn't know that her mother's heart was undergoing the baptism of the storm. She happily returned to her mother under the praise of everyone, but was suddenly grabbed by the wrist: "Who taught you to sing?"

"Ah?" Lu Yao looked dazed, his wrist aching from being scratched.But she didn't try to break free, she just answered Bai Ci with tears in her eyes: "No one taught me, I can do it myself."

A storm was brewing in Bai Ci's eyes, and his face was unpredictable.At this time, there were still uncles and aunts who didn't know about it and said: "Oh, this girl sings so well, she can become a singer in the future~" "That's right, Xiao Luyao is still so beautiful, she will definitely be very attractive in the future." Boys like it~"

Then Xiao Luyao saw her trembling mother staring at her with almost vicious eyes, then suddenly passed out without saying a word, and fell to the ground twitching and foaming at the mouth.

The adults panicked all of a sudden, some called an ambulance and others checked Bai Ci's situation.Only Lu Yao stood aside with a pale face, trembling all over looking at Bai Ci's miserable state.

Why, why did my mother become such a terrible state? Is it my fault?Is it because of my singing?!
Later, Lu Yao also knew why Bai Ci reacted so strongly when she saw her singing on stage—because her husband, Lu Yao's father, Lu Qingyun, and his lover, Ji Lan, were born as a small singer. She also sang in front of Bai Ci and then taunted her with Lu Qingyun's insufficiency of tone.

Maybe everyone really has a low self-esteem in front of their lover. Bai Ci's singing is indeed tone-deaf, and every song she sings seems to be original, so she is unwilling to sing in front of everyone.

And Ji Lan taunted her in front of so many people—or in front of Lu Qingyun, which made Bai Ci accept incompetence.That's why she lost control when she saw Xiao Luyao who sang so well.

Although Bai Ci apologized to Lu Yao at that time, the psychological damage already caused cannot be undone.

Lu Yao didn't tell Bai Ci - from that day on, she couldn't sing in front of others, otherwise she would have difficulty breathing, dizziness and nausea.

And this symptom has lasted for more than ten years and has not improved.Although it doesn't seem to have serious consequences at ordinary times, it is the result of Lu Yao's own efforts to adjust - or the result of getting used to it, as long as she sings in front of everyone, she will still get sick.

"My God." Liu Zhiyan covered his mouth, his eyes were moist, "Lu Yao is so pitiful."

"Since you know, why did you let her take the stage with you?!" Lu Yi heard about these past events, and asked Lu Han half angrily and half distressed.

Lu Han didn't care, he looked at the unconscious Lu Yao quietly, and stroked her face with his hand, "Because I think it's too unfair for someone else's mistakes to be borne by an innocent woman."

When the word "others" was mentioned, Lu Han glanced at Lu Yi with chilly eyes, gloomy.

Lu Yi was taken aback for a moment, and suddenly realized that the root cause was his mother, Ji Lan. He was speechless for a moment.

Yi Hanzhi looked at Lu Yao silently, and asked a question: "She was well before stepping down, does it mean that her condition has actually improved this time?"

Lu Han nodded: "Well, Yaoyao is trying to overcome this demon that has troubled her for more than ten years. Although she is in a coma now, there is no doubt that she has succeeded."

Wen Zitao frowned slightly: "Does it mean that as long as Lu Yao wakes up, nothing serious will happen?"

Lu Han nodded: "Yeah."

The crowd was speechless for a while, and after a while Jin Zheng sighed: "You are really willing."

Lu Han was taken aback for a moment, and then replied in a voice that only he could hear: ".I love you more than you."

Lu Yao seemed to have had a very long dream.

In the dream, she was still the carefree child with both parents.Her mother was healthy and gentle, and her father was aloof but also by her side.

But later, such days are gone.His father is gone, his mother is sick, and Xiao Luyao is alone.This road is very dark, and she would actually be afraid.

Until the end, even her mother left, and Xiao Luyao thought, what is the reason for her stumbling and stumbling life alone for so long? What is the reason for her to persevere~
"distant."

In a daze, there seemed to be a familiar gentle voice calling her.In the light at the end of the darkness, a voice kept calling her.

Lu Yao walked slowly towards the light source.In the darkness, a translucent hand reached out to her.The bright smiling face in the memory is shining.

"Yaoyao, live for me, persevere for me."

It's Lu Han.It's her path.
Lu Yao burst into tears instantly.

The day the two of them met for the first time, Lu Han always regarded that day as a turning point that changed his life.But what he didn't know was that that day was also the day that changed the trajectory of Lu Yao's life.

When Lu Qingyun said "Lu Yao, your mother is dead" in an unusually indifferent tone, Lu Yao actually had no motivation to persevere.

Her heart is screaming violently, wanting to destroy herself and society, but she is only such a person, how can she destroy the world, so she can only destroy herself.

But before taking action, Lu Yao met Lu Han.

That poor child who had been beaten so hard but had no intention of fighting back, that child who had no will to survive like himself, Lu Yao suddenly had the idea of ​​finding a family for him for some reason.

Since her parents don't want her anymore, she will find a family for herself! Love her family wholeheartedly!
So from that day on, Lu Yao almost lived for Lu Han.It's just that Lu Han himself doesn't know.

"Yaoyao, come with me."

Lu Han's voice in the dream was still so gentle, that Lu Yao couldn't bear to refuse.she slowly stretched out her hand
The moment the two hands touched, Lu Yao's tears flowed down, and she said in a hoarse voice——
".it is good."

Lu Yao suddenly opened his eyes, and met a pair of familiar eyes full of affection.Lu Han looked at her with a smile, and said softly, "Welcome back, Yaoyao."

Lu Yao took a deep breath.She knew that from now on, that nightmare would never disturb her again, and she was about to become the fearless road queen.

The harm that others gave her in the past will all disappear under Lu Han's gentle and firm comfort and encouragement.

Lu Han reached out and hugged Lu Yao tightly, "Yaoyao, it's okay, it's over."

Lu Yao let out a long breath in a daze, and said in a hoarse voice, "Well, it's all over."

You have already gambled with your heart, how can I be willing to let you lose?