my naughty female president

Huai En has never appeared in my yard since she came to look for me that night. She probably understands in her heart that the relationship between me and her is just a love affair between her alone.

For her, this is tantamount to a grand fireworks, no matter how gorgeous it is, it can't match the fleeting fate.

She understands that no one will stand by her in this relationship, she will be alone and helpless after all...

It’s just that she often appears on the beach at dusk. Sometimes I row a boat in the sea and cast a net to catch fish, shrimps and crabs that are too late to go home. Sometimes I patrol the beach and pick up shells and clams that have been left on the beach by the tide.

Huai En no longer used to make brackets with her hands like before, calling me Uncle Uncle unscrupulously under the bright sunshine, and never danced around me like a colorful butterfly!

She would just sit quietly on the reef at the pier, facing my direction, watching silently.

The gradually bitter sea breeze blows her short hair flying wantonly, she doesn't realize it, and the occasional gulls and herons fly past her in the sunset, and they can't keep her eyes.

She is no longer what she used to be, like a winter plum that is tough in the wind, proudly independent from the wind and rain.

she became silent...

Although she said that night that she doesn't love me anymore and won't bother me anymore, but I clearly know that the most uncontrollable thing for people is their feelings, so how can they be controlled freely!She was just sad alone!
Every time I think of Huai En, her grief-stricken expression and heart-piercing words that night, it makes my soul tremble.

In many sleepless nights, I really wanted to put on my clothes and go to school to see her through the cold night. Although I couldn't bear her sadness, I really wanted to know how much harm I had caused her!I remembered what Professor Fang said to me. He said that Huai En is a child with an upright personality and an unruly inside. He might do extreme behaviors.

In fact, I have no intention of going fishing at sea to pick up crabs, just to let the cold wind blow away my guilt for a moment, but in my heart, maybe I also want to take a look at Huai En from a distance, God knows!
So whenever I see her appearing alone on the pier, my heart will feel at ease for no reason. I faintly know that what I am waiting for is probably this peace of mind. Even if she is still sad, but at least I know her It's okay, the rest can only be left to time.

Although time can't do anything about some things, it can always polish the sadness a little bit and make it less sharp. When we think of it, even if the pain is still there, we will no longer be cut. This is probably the disappointment of the heart. The last consolation of guilt!
When the early winter was approaching, Huai En finally stood in front of me again. Maybe it was the love that was forgotten in the rivers and lakes that made people too powerless to fight, or maybe the love that could not be loved was not worth cherishing at all.After a period of silence, Huai En finally regained her mood and stood in front of me again, with a smile that broke my heart again...

It was another evening, she still came to the pier and looked at me quietly on the beach, the weather was getting colder, no one came to catch the sea except me, and I came to the beach just out of habit.

I like to face the vast sea alone. This vast feeling will make me feel small. If a person is compared with this world, he is really no different from the sand under his feet. Joys and joys are nothing.

The universe is eternal and vast, and has been silent for billions of years, all in the same peaceful posture.And we human beings have only lived on this lonely planet for decades, what we have seen is only a square inch of the world, and what we have experienced is only a flickering time.

You must know that the end of life is just a piece of loess, you and I are the same, this is a fate that no one can escape.Thinking about it this way, although it is inevitable to be more desperate, it can also gain some peace of mind.

Huai En didn't leave in a hurry before I saw me return as usual, but quietly waited for me to gradually approach from the beach.

When I got on the pier, Huai En looked at me, and after a few seconds she finally smiled again, but this smile made me feel inexplicably heartbroken, because I clearly saw the deep sadness in her eyes, but I didn’t have the courage Going to hold on to that trace of sadness, Wang pretended to smile back without knowing it, but he didn't know how to look calm when holding back the smile, and a little at a loss froze the smile on his face.

"Uncle! Long time no see!" She smiled slightly.

It's just that her understatement almost broke me, long time no see?Really long time no see?Or does she think that this will make me think that she has kept her word and really done what she promised before and no longer have illusions about me?
But besides cooperating with her performance as much as possible and pretending to be ignorant, what else can I do?Poor Huai En, do you know that your acting skills are full of flaws because of too much effort?Or do you already have an insight into my psychology, knowing that I have no choice but to cooperate with you to carry out this clumsy play?
So honour, you really made it!

Pretending to be relaxed, I stretched out my hand and tightened her woolen scarf, and said with a smile, "Long time no see, Miss Huai En!"

"Uncle, I don't love you anymore, will you drive me away?" She looked at me and smiled.

"I think you are hungry! What do you want to eat? Uncle cook for you?" I pretended to know everything.

Huai En smiled again, revealing her neat white teeth and two cute dimples.

"I want to eat big crabs and lobsters, as well as saury and fried scallops!" She sensiblely followed my prompts.

In fact, we all know in our hearts that we are just speaking against our will, but none of us have the courage to pierce this thin layer of window paper that can keep us safe, only we are all careful not to touch this fragile layer The window paper, we can maintain this way of getting along like walking on thin ice.

"My family has big crabs and lobsters, as well as scallops, but the saury... really not! You know that saury will not go to the sea this season! Miss Huai'en may not be able to eat it!" It's a way to get the tune.

"Is there any other fish? I haven't eaten fish for a long time!" She looked hopeful.

"No, but if Miss Huai'en really wants to eat, I don't mind going fishing for you now. You see, the boat and the net are ready-made!" I gestured to the canoe moored by the pier.

Huai En immediately became excited when he heard the words, and clapped his hands and shouted loudly: "Okay, okay, I almost forgot, this is our Riding the Wind and Waves, and you are still my first mate!"

After she said this, we both froze at the same time. She may have been unintentional, but this sentence undoubtedly brought back memories for both of us at the same time. Said: "I hope you can forget the past and find your new life on this boat!" She didn't know at that time that I had already arrived at my own life when I came here. My life is in turmoil again.

At the same time, I remembered the scene when she and I went out to sea in a canoe for the first time. That time we both fell into the sea, she asked me in a low voice: "Uncle, will we die?" Facing the sea, he said to me boldly: "From now on, I will be the captain of the Riding the Wind and the Waves, and you will be my first mate!"

Scenes of scenes were clearly displayed in front of me again because of her unsuspecting words. I suddenly realized that every bit of the past is the greatest happiness in life, and it takes a lifetime to slowly savor it.

It's just that now is definitely not the time to bring up old things again. The barrier we carefully maintained was broken so easily...

Huai En suddenly became depressed, she stood there and trembled violently, I could clearly see the outline of her cheeks due to the powerful bite of her teeth.

I know that her heart must be aching from the memory evoked by her unintentional words, because I am the same, the difference is that my pain has nothing to do with the memory, but only because of her pain!
Huai En lowered his head slowly, and his tone became gloomy: "Uncle, let's go home. If there is no fish, there will be no fish. It will be dark soon, so stop fishing!"

There was an unconcealable sadness in my heart, and I suddenly became stubborn, as if I was competing with someone, and as if I wanted to make up for something, I said to Huai En: "Huai En, wait for me for a while, today You will have fish to eat tonight!"　
After speaking, without waiting for Huai En to answer, she turned around and was about to walk down the pier, but she heard Huai En sneezed fiercely behind her. I turned around and saw her in thin clothes, her face was already flushed by the sea breeze, probably because she couldn't bear it to the bone. sea ​​breeze.

I was afraid that if she waited too long, she might catch a cold, so I took off my coat and put it on Huai En, and helped her fasten the buttons. Then I turned around and walked down the pier to the canoe that swayed with the waves.

I rowed the canoe into the sea, and even cast a few nets, but there was no harvest. Probably because the water was cold in winter, the fish had all gone to the deep sea.Reluctant to give up, I rowed the canoe to the center of the bay, and finally salvaged a few palm-length small whitebait from the deepest part of the bay.Only then did he close the net and return.

When I went to the pier and showed her the fish in my hand, I found that her eye circles were red, and there seemed to be wet tears on her eyelashes, which made me feel a little bit excited about catching fish. no deposit.

Huai En stared at me silently, tears flowed uncontrollably again.

She turned her face away and wiped away her tears fiercely, then turned her head and continued to look at me with broken sadness in her eyes.

She seemed to be unable to pretend to be strong any longer, unable to act any longer, and said to me with trembling lips:
"Uncle, since you don't love me, why do you treat me so well? I just sneezed and you gave me your clothes. I just said casually that you want to eat fish and you can immediately hit me in the sea. Why? You just can't love me?"

Huai En looked at me eagerly and bewilderedly, the tears that had just been wiped gushed out again, and the moment they fell, they were engulfed by the knife-like sea breeze and blown into the depths of the sky!
I stretched out my hand to wipe away the tears on her face, sighed wordlessly, took her hand in my hand, and pulled her back.

"Huai En, I know this will hurt you, but I think I need to say something again. I treat you well because I always treat you as a little sister. I actually..."

"Uncle, don't say any more! I understand, I understand! I also said, I will not love you anymore, I am already working hard to do this, and I am about to succeed, you believe me, I will definitely be able to Made it!"

Huai En interrupted me, showing me a poignant smile with wet tears on his face.Apart from sighing secretly in my heart, all I could do was hold her cold hand tightly.But I feel a little sad in my heart, I don't know if this interrupted drama can continue...