My Japanese story is a bit sweet

Chapter 119 Xia Xi's Night.

"Life is a process of eating a buffet, a lot of food, a lot of choices. People who commit suicide are the kind of customers who yell "pay the bill" after eating two bites."

"Miss Xia Xi, we have many kinds of food here. If you don't want to eat these two, you can eat something else."

"Pay!"

"No, Miss Xia Xi, the biggest advantage of eating a buffet is that you can take a break if you don't want to eat, and come back to eat again when you feel better."

"Pay the bill! I just ate shit in those two bites! Do I have to continue eating shit after I wake up?"

"Miss, there are not only take two in life, but also take three, take four and unlimited take. If you want to treat your life as eating shit, then you commit suicide and reincarnate in the luxurious toilet of the Imperial Palace in your next life. Slowly Eat it, no one will care about you for three years."

Sachiko Shiraishi, who was dressed in a traditional maid outfit, stood beside the bed, quietly watching Fujiwara Hoshika, who was playing two roles and playing two roles.

Under the control of good professionalism, except for a twitch at the corner of her eyes, she still controlled her facial expressions very well.

"People don't die so easily, but when they are about to die, it's very easy."

"You are going to die or live. If I persuade you once or twice, you don't listen. If you don't persuade you, you feel that I don't care about you."

"If you want to die, stay away from me. You don't care about yourself. Do you want me to hold your head down and make you eat on time? Since you can't survive, then you have to die. Do you understand?"

"Of course, you can rest assured that I will not watch you die, I will close my eyes and see you off in my heart."

This is too much!

Shiraishi Sachiko quietly clenched her fists.

The girl on the bed turned her head and slowly opened her eyes. The pupils that were once jewel-like were now gray and cloudy.And the originally shiny black hair, like autumn weeds, withered in pieces.

It's really worrying.

She opened her mouth, but she couldn't make a sound. Instead, her already cracked lips were pulled and bloodshot.

Fujiwara Hoshizora heard the words she couldn't say, because he had begged Yukino Risa more than once for these words.

It's ironic to think about it, who would have thought that one day, it would be his turn to enlighten Xia Xilin by Fujiwara Xingkong.

"Don't be afraid..." He gently held Xia Xilin in his arms, using the warmth of his chest to warm his body that was about to collapse.

"Don't be afraid."

"Will be fine."

"everything will be fine."

His irritability at this moment is as endless as the result obtained by dividing ten by three.

When Xia Xilin said the phrase "Fujiwara Xiaolin is no longer wanted", what was originally just a 0.333333 infinite loop of irritability turned into 3.1415926, which is also endless, but more chaotic and untraceable irritable.

"How come no one wants it, am I here?"

"No matter where the future is, whether it's snowing all over the sky or it's dark all day long, as long as you go, I will accompany you."

Warm sunlight shines into the misty forest, guiding lost travelers home.

Xia Xilin raised her head slightly with difficulty, trying to see his face clearly with her hazy vision.

Fujiwara Xingkong rubbed her forehead with his nose, and there was a faint reassuring smile on his handsome face.

"You were right before. The two of us are like bare-bottomed children who grew up on an uninhabited island. We eat bananas when we are hungry, and sleep in each other's arms when we are lonely."

"I used to be the same as you. I felt more like a monster. Although I really wanted to live like a normal person, I kept reminding myself that you are an ugly monster."

"Extremely hate communicating with people, as long as I meet people, as soon as I say "How are you doing recently?" ""It becomes cooler! " and other greetings, I don't know why, I feel painfully like a heinous liar, and I really want to die."

"In the end, the world also treats me cautiously and fearlessly, and I feel like saying something that is nothing but lies. When I hear this, I will not only feel sad because the other party is stingy with caring, but I will also hate this more and more. The world. People in the world, is it just to greet each other in such a rigid way, to care for each other hypocritically, until both parties are exhausted, and spend their lives like this?"

Xia Xilin reached out her hand, reached under his shirt, and hugged his hot body tightly.

"Rin, listen to me." Fujiwara Xingkong hugged the withered flowers in her arms, and said firmly in her ear: "This world is not like this."

"Follow me and leave the uninhabited island, okay?"

Xia Xilin stared at him blankly for a long time, and after a while, she grabbed his back with both hands, lowered her body slightly, and cried depressively and violently.

The thin body trembled and made a "woo-woo" sound, like bean sprouts about to fall at any time, and tears fell like rain.

Fujiwara Xingkong patted her on the back lightly, and winked at Sachiko Shiraishi who was wiping away tears. The latter understood, turned and walked out, and brought in a bowl of meat porridge after a while.

"How about something to eat before we board the ship?" he said softly.

"Can you feed me?"

"As you order, my Miss Xia Xi."

After eating a bowl of meat porridge, her withered face was a little more bloody, and her cloudy pupils also became clearer.

Only then did Fujiwara Xingkong feel relieved, and when he stood up from the bed, Xia Xilin reached out and grabbed the corner of his clothes.

"Don't go please"

Still faintly crying.

Fujiwara Xingkong rubbed the tip of his sore nose, and comforted him: "I'll go and tell my wife about your situation, so that she can feel at ease. Don't worry, I'll be back soon."

Xia Xilin let go of his hand, and when he walked out the door, he stared blankly at the ceiling decorated with nanmu.

My spirit is still poor, but I can already think.

The rest of my life is still very long, and no one can tell me how to spend this long and annoying time.It seems to have to be ignored, like measles.

However, some people have died and become blind due to measles. It is wrong to let it grow wildly and ignore it.

People always like to cut up the vast world into pieces with a knife, draw their own domain, and draw the ground as a prison within it.Just stick to your footing and never step beyond the boundaries at any time.

I used to always think this way, no matter who I care too much about, it will increase the probability of not being cherished.If you can avoid the violent joy, naturally there will be no grief.

But I really fell in love with him, and this feeling had sprouted unconsciously, and by the time I realized it, it had grown into a big tree in the sky.

But he doesn't belong to me anymore.

Xia Xilin sat up from the bed, looked outside the door, thought for a while, and told Sachiko Shiraishi, "Get ready, I'm going to take a bath."

After a pause, she ordered again: "When Fujiwara comes out of Madam's house, I will also have someone wait for him to bathe and change clothes. The clothes I ordered last time will be the same."

The surprise in Shiraishi Sachiko's eyes flashed, and she responded in a low voice: "Understood."

After she went out, Xia Xilin took out a small box from under the bed, opened it, and took out the bright red brocade trailing kimono inside.

Open the window and walk through the corridor, the alley where it is raining.

The hair blowing in the wind, the empty home behind the door.

She looked at the courtyard under the night and said to herself softly.

I know he likes me, but just liking me is not enough.

far from enough.

Now I am eagerly looking forward to experiencing an indulgent joy, even if great sorrow will follow, I will not hesitate.

(End of this chapter)